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lawyers can also laugh!

2006-07-11T07:10:00.000-07:00

my grandfather wrote or adopted this book which he called "lawyers can also laugh!"

when i entered law school, it was tough. lawyers would yell at you, intimidate you, shout and disappoint you.. as one of my professors said, "your dream of becoming a lawyer may become your nightmare!" but despite of it all, lawyers considering how they talk and their personality, they really laugh a lot and joke a lot (khit minsan, d cla tumatawa sa joke nila. heheh!)

but the realization that lawyers are people who are full of kalokohan and stuff, i was able to digest the idea only when i started working. why? because i had to deal with lawyers who were affiliates and partners at work.

earlier today, i had a meeting with a group of 5 and 2 of them were lawyers. how funny that the one i usually see and talk ay professor pala sa BEDA! remember that i came from BEDA? and now ko lang nalaman na he's teaching there apart from the other schools pa. small world! and the 2 of them were joking a lot and so fun. he was even telling me how he hates students who comes to class unprepared and ofcourse, i smiled... ciempre, i'm one of those kse i have very less time bec of work, heheh! justified. tapos he was telling me na pag may 3 dw na sunod2 na hindi nakasagot, ay pinapaalis niya sa class! terror cia in short from my assessment sa kwento niya. heheh!

pero how fun db? i've been working with him and sa totoo lang, magaan siya katrabaho. ok siya, he's so kind and nice and very approachable. now who would imagine na iba siya sa loob ng classroom db? heheh! buti nalang, di ko siya naging prof. heheh! joke lang. pero wla lang, naisip ko lang talaga na lawyers are really versatile people. they can be anybody! but definitely, they KNOW HOW TO LAUGH!

y choose a working student?

2006-06-05T03:59:00.000-07:00

they say that law students are so busy that they don't have time for love... but how much more when a law student is at the same time, working? a work that's so time demanding and constantly developing...

from a heated discussion a day ago with a friend bout whether or not working students still have time for love, i came to think of writing this one. i bet to disagree to those who says that working students is NOT a good choice for a partner or a lover! in fact, THEY ARE THE BEST CHOICE! you know why? because...

1. they don't have time for petty fights. Unlike the usual working or student, they don't nag you or argue without reasons bec. they're too tired for such "walang kwentang away" ( admit it? girls love starting fights even if they don't have any reason to do so! heheh)

2. they're exposure to both worlds (school and work) makes them more sensitive to their partners needs. it's because they deal with different people everyday and they learn from them and thier mistakes that they don't want to make the same mistakes to their mates.

3. Each minute spent with their partner is always quality time. They always feel so busy and they always feel so guilty of not having enough time with their partner even if they do. and it frightens them that their other half would start to complain about time that's why they spent time wisely and spent it the best way possible when with their gf/bf.

4. They shower the other party with sooo much affection as their form of self gratification. These people are so busy that seldom, they forget about theirselves. in this way, they feed their needs by giving time to their partners and by giving them all the love in the world... doing so makes them happy and satisfied already!

and finally...

5. they are overly stressed, they'll be begging for relief. heheh! i guess this is self explanatory. and hey, don't get me wrong! it's been said that a strong relationship needs fire! heheh!

so... to sum it all up, working students got all what is needed for a good relationship... but i've noticed, isn't the last one more in favor of the male species? heheh!

well, quite a few agreed with me... and hey! dont get me wrong... THIS IS NOT AN ADVERTISEMENT!!! it was never intended for that purpose and it never will be. besyds, i don't need an AD after all! heheh! lol.

an update

2006-05-29T01:07:00.000-07:00

so? its been a while since i last updated this blog... well, what's new? with me?
NOTHING. just had to do a lot of things, been really busy with work and scholl and my social life... heheh! that couldn't be absent, ryt?

ok, a really good friend left and will be staying for good in davao where she's transferring law school in said place... i feel so sad when i heard of the news because first, it was REALLY UNEXPECTED. i was surprised! she was my closest girl friend in law school bec. of the many from beda, only three of us were left together and stayed in baste. unfortunately, the other one found new friends already and its so sad though we still find time to talk and go out once in a while, iba p rin tlga pag kau2 ang mgkakasama db? tpos all of sudden, the one left with me has to transfer to another school that's far from here!!! grbe tlga! and worse, our other friend who was suppose to go back from a break from law school decided not to go back because his dad opposes. sigh... =(

i feel so left alone.. im sorry to say this specially sa mga friends kong iba kse though i have them, iba pa rin tlga yung kme... i don't know, but that's the reality. lately, i've been busy with a new friend that's so much like me in many ways, mahilig uminom, manlait, mang-asar at tamad mag-aral! heheh! im glad to have her around but still i know she has friends also like the once i had. i'm sure, i still haven't totally lost the other left but then it's just not the same. i know he's still there if i need him or otherwise but then, things are different. ewan ko ba! i just feel like i miss the GOOD OLD TIMES... tama nga, 'nothing is constant in this world, except CHANGE'... but rest assured, i'll stay the same despite everything and i am confident that they know that i'm just here in case they need me.

well, let's move to another story coz i'm feeling sad na... last sat nyt was kinda a good night for me... why? because along the bar hopping scenes i had, i croos roads with 2 old friends. while in greenbelt, i saw a classmate from my econ days... and we had a brief chat, would remember that the last time i saw her was last year, mga part of 1st sem when we had a reunion... mga more than 6 months ago and then when i went to malate, i just though of txting drake and hola! he was there! we had a really good talk with updates from our other friends.... he was my officemate way back in PS and last time i saw him was october last year... now i realize that its good to be reunited with old friends once in a while... hai...

with that, i just wish that the friends i'm missing, whom im saddened with their leaving, will be reunited once more some time in the near future....

what a dream!

2006-03-28T23:19:00.000-08:00

i woke up monday morning feeling bad and troubled because of the dream i had encountered! a dream that was really unusual... a dream that placed a big question mark on me for the rest of the said day...

so here it goes... i was with my late father, we kept on running and running because 2-3 persons, who is believed to be the devil's advocates, were running after us! fortunately, we reached the elevator which served as our escape going to the real world from the uderworld. By the way, the underworld in my dream looks like an abandoned building under construction, wherein all the walls were either unfinished and chipped or covered with dirty clothes and there were trails of fire over the walls... basta, something like that!

when the elevator opened, we were inside a mall... my dad and i were holding hands, trying to save all the people we see. in short, savior kme ng tao from evil. After doing our job, we looked so relax walking going out of said mall to go home. near the exit, i realized that someone was going to our direction and saw that the same was the one who was running after us. My dad hurriedly pulled me going the different direction to run again and i saw that the people inside the stalls ay hindi na gumagalaw.. parang frozen pero hindi. tapos naabutan daw kme nung humahabol then upon touching our neck, ng-freeze na dn dw kme tpos nagising na ako! wAAAH! db? hndi man lang kme nbigyan ng chance na gumanti or what... ang kainis pa, hindi o alam what happened to us.. kung forever na kme ganon or if na save pa kme! hai!

moreso, finals ko nung day na yun and nag-aayos ako ng audit sa work... sino ba nman gaganahan db? hai!!! ano kya meaning nun?

economic sabotage?

2006-03-09T02:35:00.000-08:00

since friday of last week, txt messages were coming endlessly regarding news of SURIGAO being into some kind of disaster or so...

different versions came... they said na in a municipality of Surigao del Norte -Placer, umurong daw ang dagat ng 7 km! and this was a sign dw of an upcoming tsunami. another story was that a lady in white (supposedly "Mother Mary") appeared in a public school in Surigao City and cried in blood stating that a calamity is about to come so we have to pray. and they mentioned that only the children saw her and that the lady is believed to be the same that appeared in Leyte before the landslide. Tapos meron pa na may tidal wave daw na darating.

all these and more...

calls overseas came coming in and people were frightened and many panicked. Being a local of the place, i've been monitoring whats going on through my mom and other friends.. locals dw were evacuating already to uplands and many were sleeping on their vehicles on the road para daw pag may nangyari, madaling makatakbo. also, because of the unending txt messages, the fishermen hid in their homes and as a result, walang fish sa market na mabibili!

DAMN with all the bad news or better yet, HELL with the WRONG INFO! zamboanga now is providing fish in the market and people are still very afraid even if PAG-ASA already confirmed that the news is FALSE.

i wonder why these things had to happen? an tahimik ng surigao tapos mabubulabog ng MALING BALITA... sabi ng iba, wla lang dw magawa. if that's the case, HELL with them! hindi ba nila naisip ang result? sana may law na to punish such misleading info and sana matukoy na sino sila! on the other hand, possible din ang economic sabotage! but WHO? who made it? Surigao is not that rich anyway although it is faring good economically... kung totoo man, sana whoever made such, develop thier own through active participation and other positive acts pero wag naman sana manira..

well, it's done. now that it's confirmed na HINDI TOTOO, i wish everything will return normal. But still, let's all continue to be vigilant and prepared just in case and continue praying. You never know what the future may bring!

happy hearts day!

2006-02-14T03:32:00.000-08:00

txt came endlessly and 1 message i got that really caught my attention. It goes like this:

Chi Ming Tsoi vs CA:
"... love is useless unless it is shared with another... this is because an ungiven self is an unfulfilled self..."

the message sender was a co-law student also. how funny that even jurisprudence gives its own explanation of the very wide concept of LOVE.

the message is simple yet definitely true. however, it doens't give distinctions so must we... the word "another" as used doesn't connote a person from the opposite sex or a partner for that matter. all it said was another which may be anybody important to us... family, friends, and just everyone!

HAPPY HEARTS DAY! share your love not just today but always. mwah! =)

social dysfunction

2006-02-14T03:31:00.000-08:00

Your Social Dysfunction:HappyYou're a happy person - you have a good amount of self-esteem, and are socially healthy. While this isn't a social dysfunction per se, you're definitely not normal. Consider yourself lucky: you walk that fine line between 'normal' and being outright narcissistic. You're rare - which is something else to be happy about.

happy? HOLIDAYS...

2006-01-08T23:25:00.000-08:00

after 364 days, the time has come that i finally can go home to SURIGAO... that was december 21, 2005. as expected, i'm so eager and excited to go home, see my family and friends, no school, no work and party all vacation period!

that same day at the airport, i saw a high school classmate/ friend whom i haven't seen for 4 yrs i believe... we just smiled and greeted each other as i was about to grab something to eat and she was on her way to the rest room. when i came back to my seat, she was already crying and asking me to help her. ofcourse i was stunned why all of sudden the shift in her mood. she told me her mom just called crying also and telling her that her they(her parents) were kidnapped the night before and her mom was just released that same morning to raise the money for ransom. she even told me that nobody knows and her mom doesn't want to tell anyone cause of fear of what might happen to her dad and even, her mom wants her to back-out from the flight. when asked, she said that only the maid and her younger sister and her irresponsible brother are with her mom. i felt nervous ofcourse bec. she ran for me for help and i couldn't say no. now, im held responsible to do the best i can to help... but who am i to be involved in this serious matter? what i did, i called our friend who was the son of the city mayor and at the same time called mom to call kuya lyndon (who happened to be the governor of surigao). i was trying to relax her and was telling her all these comforting words with advise, etc. as we arrived in surigao, we immediately went to meet the governor and there they talked. afterwards, i was tasked to wait for her signal that her mom was ready to speak of the incident so that help could be extended to them by proper authorities. i haven't had any good sleep yet since i went out to give my intangible treat/gift to a good friend. it was already past 4 when i recived her signal so again, i contacted the governor and set their meeting once more.

maybe because of tiredness,i fell asleep. the next day, i became really busy doing errands for my mom to shop for those in her list whom she forgot to buy a xmas present and at the same time, i was busy wrapping gifts and delivering the same. also, the same day, 22, wasthe 1st day for the novena prayers for daddy who'll be celebrating his 2nd death anniv on the 30th. so i was also helping my sis bake and prepare food for those that will attend the prayers. then came 24th. me and my sis planned the noche buena and as we want it to be great, we prepared everything ourselves including the table setting and all. xmas eve was great! everyone was so happy and cheerful and enjoyed. the morning of 25, i woke up bec. someone was knocking at the bedroom's door. i opened it and saw my cousin crying saying "wala na si uncle bobby pau". i answered her "ows? come on! wag mo ako lolokohin ha at inaantok pa ako!". she said "totoo nga. papasukin mo nga ako!". then came her mom crying and woke my mom up with the bad news. everybody burst into tears and when we went out, the whole family was already in the sala. we were all worried how to give the news to lolodad, who is 86 yrs old and who did not have any idea that my uncle got sick. eventually, we have to tell him before the news starts to flash it on tv. and we were succesful.

starting that day, we were all busy accepting visitors who condoled. we had to move daddy's novena to 4pm to give way to uncle bobby's at 8pm. until came the dead body of my uncle to surigao on the 30th. the same day as my dad's death anniv. he was welcomed by the surigaonons as if he was a hero or even a saint because it was the first time that i saw the whole of surigao outside the streets waiting for the very long caravan with his coffin to pass by their houses. they placed the image of sto. niño of which my uncle was a devotee and some have candles lit at their homes and some have banners with their personal thanx and goodbye message to him. it was heart warming really... so in his stay there, we were busy everyday entertaining guests and preparing for food for the people. we rode an air force plane together with another plane for his remains and another for the other family members on jan 2 to bring him back here in manila where he will be burried. the whole surigao was mourning for him. and when we arrived here, we brought him to wpd then to senate then to crame and back to sanctuario de san antonio. the turn out of people was overwhelming and that is when we realized that he was really a good man who have helped so many people and how big he was in the society of which he never bragged about.

came jan. 5 for his internement. and after all this time of puyat and pagod, i felt like my body's giving up and needed a rest. finally, it's all over. a death turned into a grand show.

now, i kept on saying that "minsan na nga lang ako makauwi ng surigao, hindi pa ako makakalabas!" im not complaining pero ofcourse, nakakapanghinayang,.. but that's part of life and we have to deal with it. tpos, came to our mind that this is 3rd decemeber we had a family member passed away, the 1st was on dec 1, 2002- my lola's only sister who was single and lived with us. then dec 30, 2003- my dad and now, it's really xmas day-my uncle. i dont know what's with december that these traumatic things have to happen. i hope this is the end.. although i know that u cannot resist death, sana lang matagal n matagal pa ang susunod.

but somehow, someway, the holidays were still happy despite the incident. y? because this is the only time that the whole family was present. naipon kme and the relationship was renewed.

now, back to normal life. school and work and away from family... but as i updated myself with my friend's situation, im still saddened by the fact na hindi pa din narelease ang dad nya and even if they gave out already, the kidnappers are asking for additional 15M. i hope things will be better for them also. i hope there will come an end to their sorrow. continue praying for her. and thanks to all who sympathized and offered prayers for my uncle's eternal repose. THIS IS LIFE. i know there's a reason for everything,.

tama na kse sa sobrang haba, im feeling lonely na rin ulit and after being away from blog, im back with this really serious and sentimental one... hai! but im ok... =)

2005-12-12T04:46:00.000-08:00

to all my friends specially those who doesn't understand my job, please check out

www.maketradefair.com

then go to events and then to Asia and then the Philippines. i'm the one being featured there... heheh! i'm so proud of it but hope you'll not misunderstood me as bragging...

i'm just really happy bout it that atleast our other friends in other parts of the world would hear my life changing experience...also, kse for me, it's as if an equivalent of a reward sa efforts and hirap ko with the big noise... by the way, for all who helped me in any way khit sa mmga nag-sign lang... THANKS SO MUCH.. sayang lang, kulang sa time and mejo hnd nadating ang iba... =) i hope na those who considers my job as "complicated/ weird/ unusual" or whatever other term applicalble, na after reading the short write up, you'll get a grasp of what i do and appreciate why i love what im doing... ; )

ONE HELL OF AN EXPERIENCE!

2005-11-17T01:19:00.000-08:00

so... last night was not a normal night... was filled with all unexpected things and happenings...

the day started well, i was alone in the office but i was able to finish everything i had to do that day... and finally, i found a hotel that's vacant for an event. i went to school afterwards to finalize my enrollment. and i saw noel, my classmate in eco whom i haven't seen since graduation in college. ang kulit! we chatted for long and na-realize ko dhil siya ang pinaka-loko kong clasmate b4, na may maaaya na ko inuman bgla! hahah!

so i went to clas na... walang prof. ngtrip kme ng frnd ko na i-surprise ung isa nmin clasmate sa eco b4 na andito now kaya pinuntahan nmin siya sa place niya. nsurprise nga ang loko! tpos ngka-ayaan mgbilyar so we did and ofcors, inom on the sides.. e the 2 boys im with have other things to do pa kaya natapos n kme mga 9 p lang... charlz drove me to my best frnd's place para dun muna ko tambay. when i arrived there, dumating 1 pa nmin frnd at nag-aya magstroll... so we did... we went to strabucks in blue wave then sa "tiangge" sa world trade center and kainis kse wla na nga me money ay napabil pa ak0! heheh! on our way home, we decided na si enrico na magdrive. he's the younger bro pla of my best frnd... pgdating namin roxas blvd., nagsimula na lhat! heheh! may checkpoint at tamang tama, stop kme.

ofcors, chineck kme kse nakaw tingin ung car dhil NO PLATE. e di nhold kme for a while and funny pa kse ung driver e wlang license! as in! khit student... plus wala pa siya dala wallet so no i.d. ciempre, 4 lang us... tpos ung 2 bata pa so we did the talking... hindi pumayag police kse anjan ung hepe nya... c major! na-bola at na-explain ko nman ung no plate pero ung driving w/o license na violation ay hindi mahanapan ng lusot! so ayun, under arrest c enrico for the meantime. ofcors, hindi namn siya iiwan dhil bata pa nga at bka kung ano gawin! so ayun, dpat dw ipa-medical muna cia so we went sa ospital ng maynila. ang prob pa, galing inuman itong c enrico! buti nlng hndi lumabas sa medical... heheh! while there, p@#$a! akalain mong ang dmi palang namamatay dun at ang gulo! bgla nlng ina-announce na "ung bangkay po ni ganito, paki-kuha nlng sa ganito". what? and then an dmi pa dumadaan sa harap namin na galng bugbugan and all plus mga patay na dinadaan na nakabalot lng sa kumot! gosh! grbe tlga! tkot p nman me sa hospital... heheh! eto pa, ciempre ngtawg kme at ang ate ko, ngpanic kya bgla dating ang bf nya... w/c is big help nman tlga... salamat pla!

finally, hndi p rin pumayag sa paki-usap c chief dhil kay major at stiff c major... ayaw dn tlga pumayag... magpapakilala n sna ako, u know? name dropping! pero ayoko tlga kaya dpat sumunod kme process... so dinala kme sa station 9 ng malate police. hnd nman really new ung mga ganto kso ang weird kse 4 lng kme plus ung 1 grl, knakabahan na tlga and kawawa ung arrested kse bata pa... 17 yrs old! while there, we tried to fix things with the investigator na may very obvious P and F and V and B defect! ang dming kwento... ang kainis pa ay ung 1 nmin ksama na grl, sobrang kulit at laging sablay hirit... kya sa asar ko, ay kulang nlang murahin ko siya! but nlng tga surigao kme lhat kya may sarili kmeng language! heheh! may kinausap n kme bg time pero hnd pa rin ma-pull out ung bata kse mahirap na dw ang situation... damn! it's past 2 am na, yet nangugulo pa dn kme kung kni-knino kse nga we need to pull out the kid dhil after the investigation, ilalagay na siya sa selda for 3 days! e an dumi dun... finally, after close n kme ni HENRY, ung investigating officer na ngshare n kme ng life stories nya... hahah! na mayabang siya pero sinakyan ko at na galit sa mga ngpapakilalang related to big tym (buti nlng, hnd ako ngpakilala) lalo n sa pamangkin ni angara na bedan law student dw na nahuli nila 2 weeks ago, etc... pumayag dn sa offer nmin! tang@#4! bkt kse pinatagal pa usapan... yun pala nahihiya lang siya dhil andun kme lahat. kse he told me the price nung ako n c enrico nlng ang andun. 2 thousand dw! bg tym! until we arrived at 1,500... hrap tlga pag major... mahal n hulugan!

nwei, e di tapos na dn... ngpa-picture pa kme w/ henry sa labas station at knuha pa niya # ng frnd ko so txtm8s cla n d future... heheh! dhil sa asar! nag-strol kme ulit, total, nhuli n nman kme e! heheh! we went to QC ikot2 lang until naisip namin bkt hnd tayo mgpa-picture sa bahay ni KUYA? hahah! e di ngpa-picture nga kme tpos we went to ortigas sa isang star mart ng caltex para uminom dhil sbi ng bstfrnd ko, i-inom nlng dw namin ung natitra nyang money! hahah! ayun, we went home mga past 5 am... and pla, me and my bst frnd nver smokes... but last nyt? cguro mga more or less nka-kalahating kaha kme ng yosi dhil lang sa inis bkt kelangan ang tagal nmin i-release kung mgpapabayad lang dn! heheh!

that ends the day of unfortunate events... well, atleast, CHARGE TO EXPERIENCE... CRAZY BUT FUN!

pix to follow na... heheh! =D

my bday!

2005-11-15T01:46:00.000-08:00

so i celebrated my birthday last sat... btw...

THANX FOR THE GREETINGS AND PRAYERS AND FOR THOSE WHO CAME TO CELEBRATE MY DAY WITH ME

un,,,i'm finally 22! old but not so much... watever! evrything went well that day... The LORD has really heard my prayers and really made my day a VERY HAPPY one.. THANX PO! =)

so a little kwento... i was preparing alone for the inuman thing and i was waiting for my sister who was going to bring the food. but then, nasiraan cia ng sasakyan kya late dumating ang pagkain... buti nalang, 4 lang boys ang dumating maaga... the rest of the visitors came after my sis arrived... hai! nwei, the party went well... ang kukulit ng mga tao at mukhang pinagtripan ako ng 2 best frnds ko... tma bang asarin ako? hmmm... heheh!

tpos un, like the other bdays i had... i recieved gifts ofcourse and guess what's funy? or should i say kakaiba? hehe! sa lhat ng bday ko, i never recieved teddy bear! ok, i got dolls and stuff toys but never teddy bear eversince i was a kid ha! and now that i'm 22, i recieved not one but 2 teddy bears as a gift! hahah! am i not old enough to have them? well, ofcourse na -appreciate ko but na-weirdohan lng cguro ako kse doesn't match my age nor my personality... i've never been fond of teddy bears kse though i never disliked them nman din...

how funny lang tlga that i got 2! a really huge one - c borgie and a small one who came with a candle - c katherine! heheh! now, i'm thinking... san ko kya cla ilalagay? hai... heheh!

nwei, thanx ulit tlga sa lhat... n btw, even if its past my bday na... tumatanngap pa din po ako ng late gifts! hahah! =)

my birthday WISHLIST

2005-11-06T00:52:00.000-08:00

hai nku... few days to go and im turning 22! yup, u read it ryt... 22! heheh! but i dont look my age ryt? looks younger and thinks older! hahah!

nwei, here's my birthday wishlist for all my friends who i know are generous enough to give me a gift and really kind to be praying that i get the non-tangible ones...

- a vacation getaway
- more night outs with good friends and those i love the company
- a digital camera with atleast 4mp
-the newest/ latest season on dvd/vcd of the sex and the city
-a transparent big umbrella
-an overnight escapade to the beach
-a red beaded necklace
-a new good book to read
-a new real silver ring (bec. i lost mine and couldn't find a match to my silver jewelries that's why i'm, wearing the one my ex gave me! =D)
-a box of dark chocolates
-good health not only for me but for my whole family
-good grades in school
-successful job-related activities
-peace sa mga galit sakin! =P
-a good sked for the secnd sem
-magic sing
-finish my clearance at PS =)
-more time (so i dont have to turn down invitations of those who deserves a chance! hmmm...heheh!)
-oreo cheesecake
-an i pod

hai... ang haba na ng list ko but still i want more... tama nga ang principle of economics... "limited resources and unlimited wants" and tama din na "people never get satisfied!"

sabi nga ng prof ko wayback, ang tao dw hndi na makontento.. now, he only wants to have a car... any car. once he gets it na, he dreams nman of a newer or more expensive model of a car and when he gets it again, he wants nman not just one but more cars... never ending wants nga namn... but that's reality... that's even a cycle if i may say...

but anyway, i just wish (if i don't get any of those tangible ones -kse i can strive hard for the non-tangible nman thru the help of your prayers ofcourse) na i'll just have ONE GREAT BIRTHDAY as planned! sana i'll be REALLY HAPPY even on that day alone...

kaya friends, wish me the best alryt? hehehe! and don't forget my gift! thanx in advance! hahaha!=D

remembering DAD on all souls' day

2005-11-02T02:10:00.000-08:00

this is the 1st ever all saints/souls' day that i wasn't able to visit the cementery in surigao... particularly DADDY... nwei, i lighted a candle for him at home and offered mass for him as well...

last nyt, i had a dream of him, maybe i just missed him so much or maybe it was just his way of visiting me, as he always does...

but my dream was really funny! parang joke lang na hndi ko maintindihan... the setting was at the church near our house in surigao where we usually attend mass.. there were plenty of people kse it was my dad's burial day dw... and then, i saw dad sitting besides mom and evrybody else crying... we were all arguing daw if the burial will be at 11am or 1pm... i was so mad na daw to all that i couldn't hide my temper anymore, i was shouting na dw. until the people decided to burry dad by 11 am. so dad walked to his coffin para humiga na, and that signals daw na he'll absolutely die na when nasa loob na cia ng coffin. that he'd be forever gone. never coming back.

at that moment, i felt my heart so heavy and i ran towards the coffin and decided that he'll be burried by 1 pm nalang. so i hurriedly opened the coffin to save him and fortunately, i succeeded. dad sat beside me daw when my cousin arrived, sweating coz he came from a basketball game. Daddy tapped him daw near the armpit and commented "ang baho mo! maligo ka nman!"

yun lang ang sinabi ng daddy ko. no more no less and natapos na din ang dream ko.. db ang weird? and worst, everybody was still crying... as if they never saw him there, as if he was in the coffin all the while.. bkt kaya ganon? nag-joke pa cia db? hai! cguro nga he wants me to know lang na he's alright kya pinatawa nya ako...

whatever it is, maybe gusto lang din nya ako bisistahin tlga... how i miss dad so much... wherever he may be now, i know na he's always there when i need him and he's guiding me all the way... thanx dad! love yah! *mwah*

disgusting secrets! heheh!

2005-10-28T03:53:00.000-07:00

ok... now i realized i just want to share this little secret i have about something disgusting! heheh!

i went to a party of an acquaintance. i was not that close to the bday celebrant but i was invited and i could not say no kse some of his close frnds were gud frnds of mine,. so ofcors, what to expect? inuman galore! ciempre, as always, 1 of the very few grls n nman ako dun.. kse lagi nman ratio is sumthing like 1 girl to 10 boys pag inuman e! heheh!

den after consuming a lot of beer without a real dinner (kse shy na me eat dhil late na ko dumating sa party e), i went to the CR to pee. but when i was there, i felt like i needed to vomit so i did.. sa lavatory... unfortunately, cra pla ung lababo kya hindi bumababa ung sinuka k! (yikes! eww...heheh)

e nhiya nman ako iwan na ganon un db? so wat i did was get the tabo and tinabo ko siya khit mahirap dhil konti lang nman tpos i threw it sa bowl. and flushed it thereafter. kso alangan nman na pabayaan ko lang na ganon ung tabo db? so wat i did agen was rinse it with water and placed some shampoo on it (dhil un lang nkita ko e) tpos i rinsed it agen and put it back wer i got it! heheh!

so, pasenxa na po sa huever used that tabo nxt to me... heheh! at least binanlawan ko nman khit hindi matinong wash yun... yoko dn hawakan e! hehehe!

lesson: pag nagpa-party ka sa hauz mo... make sure to clean everythng d nxt day before using anythng... hu knows? sum1 vomitted on it too! =p

back into Blogging!

2005-10-27T02:41:00.000-07:00

hai nku... how i miss doing this.. sobrang busy kse. nwei, now i dont knw where to start sa dami ko gusto ikwento n i-share sa inyo... ano nga ba?

hmmm.... well, kung ano nlng maisipan ko ha!

finally, natapos na ang final exams ko yesterday na namove ng namove dhil sa class suspension due to rally! heheh! SEMBREAK na! yahoo!! last nyt, i was so badtrip kse yung long tym plan namin nga law frnds to go out after finals ay HND natuloy! grbe! i dont want nman to be stuck at home on the 1st night of my vacation na sobrang sandali lang db? buti nlng nkahanap agad ako alternative lakad! that's the advantage of having lots of frnds! heheh!

so ayun, tamang-tama na wlang ofis ung bst frnd ko so we B.I.d the kids (young p kse cla e, mga 1st yr-2nd yr college) to go out w/ us. at eto pa, andito pala mga parents nung mga yun kse they're going to HK n a few days tym. Kme pa ngpaalam,,, filing ko tuloy naisip ng mga nanay nila na kme tlga ang ng-b BI sa mga anak nila! totoo nman! heheh! n by the way, nung plabas n kme ng compound, i finally saw Burig. he's a frnd na last kita ko ay Feb. pa! heheh! ang kulit, ang taba nya, ang cute! heheh!

so ayun, natuloy ung lakad until we met w/ the guys na ng-iinuman pla dhil bday ni eric at hnd man lang kme sinama! heheh!

naalala ko tuloy mga batchmates ko sa PS. we went to bulacan kse to des' bday last oct 15. and ang saya kse lasing clang lhat! heheh! eto pa, start ng finals week ko yun ha tpos 10 am ng sunday n kme nkauwi... n by the way, MWong is insisting kse na ako daw may kasalanan kung bkt nalasing ang lahat! Ofcors dats not true!!! cla ung ngdecide kung ano iinumin no? e bkt ako ung may kasalanan db? heheh!

hai nku, nguguluhan na ang isip ko sa dami kong gustong ikwento!! kaya hnd ko na macompose ng maayos! heheh! nct tym ulit,.. ay meron pla ako kwento... ibang blog nlng un! heheh!

how i love blogging! kmiss din pla no? =)

NEVER txt while sleeping!!!

2005-09-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

i hate it! i was so sleepy last nyt that i wasn't even able to change clothes... i normally sleep with my fon nxt to me and since nagigising ako sa txt or call... i usually, look at my fon and even manage to reply sometimes sa mga txt msgs...

last nyt was a differnt case! i woke to answer a txt msg and the msgs came on and on until "no space for new messages" na. so i decided to delete the sent items... but i was really sleepy kse nga so tired from days of not being able to sleep well and really tiring and busy week. when i woke up, i checked my fon (as i usually do) and was shocked dhil 2 msgs lang ang laman ng inbox ko! OMG! i checked my folders as well and ung mga nka-save sa archives but wala rin laman! GOSH tlga! so wat i did, i turned my fon off kse bka nasira lang but when i opened it up, ganon pa din! nothing new... so in short, na delete ko lahat dhil ngtxt ako while asleep! whatever!

I HATE IT! sobrang sama ng loob ko as in i almost cried... come to think of it, may mga nka-save akong personal messages dun na 3 yrs ng andun! plus, ung mga sinave ko sa folders... na really great msgs! kainis tlga! but nwei, i'm just thinking nlng na it's a signal to forget everythng in the past and live a new life! whatever! bsta... kaya, txt nyo nlng ako bago msgs! huhu! =(

sometimes it feels so good to be a BITCH! hahaha!

2005-09-20T02:40:00.000-07:00

i met up with a friend this morning and she told me that she really wanted to talk to me daw regarding matters that bothers her. luckily, i was at san beda bec. of the photo-essay exhibit im holding at sabater court and at the same time the venue for a signature campaign (sign kayo ha! heheh! free ad ito!). tinulungan nya ko mag set-up and we talked... grabe! an dami na pala talagang nangyari sa mga buhay2 na nkakamiss... then from our exchange of stories, we reached a conclusion and it is this:

"friends nga tayo kse parang lahat ng nangyayari sa atin ay pareho! sinusundan nya mga yapak ko! hahah! plus: matatanda na tlaga kme kse iba na ang concept sa mga things and we're bitches!" hahahah!

dont mis-interpret ha, pero bitches in the sense na we're just so mean... tho, aminado ako na mahirap din lalo na dhil alam mo na when u do something u know is wrong, alam mo na ang consequence nun and tinanggap mo na kso u can nver detach the vulnerable side of you na in any way, masasaktan ka... mahihirapan! but still, sometimes u just have to learn to live in the present and enjoy whatever is there db? kse if you try to live life in accordance with what u foresee for your future and ur not happy or enjoying it nman, whats the use? u'll never know na bka tom, ul die na db? well nwei... ang gulo ng kwento ko! hindi kse ma-idetail dhil sensitive... bsta!

ay ewan... basta! =j

happy fiesta surigao!

2005-09-13T04:01:00.000-07:00

last saturday was surigao's fiesta... well, for us here in manila who wasn't able and cannot go home... we celebrated here in manila... kme mga taga-surigao na andito sa manila. it's the 3rd year that we've been doing it... heheh!

we started the party by going to mass at ust church 5pm... then, we proceeded to the HQ, we call it HQ since we normally stay there for get togethers o khit wla lang mgawa kse 2 houses na tabi tlga dun ang occupied by surigaonons... it's in miguelin, sampaloc...

as usual, given na un na exag inuman na naman dun... funny lang kse this time, we were all in blue tops kya nice sa pix! heheh! and many came tho unexpected... we had excessive food din na kala namin ay kulang... (well, thanx to noel's mom for the lechon! =)

it was a night full of fun and partying then came rj! (rojie i mean, heheh!) kse naisipan namin siya tawagan since he stayed din nman in surigao for sometime.. and gud that he came with his gf and a friend... tpos came another late comer who had been lost for a while with her bf... damn! what can i say? sori for the comments ha... pero i cant control it and i bet she heard all our panlalait na dn that same nyt... ano b nman ung bf nya? mas matangkad pa siya! tpos laging nka smile, prang may topak? sbi nga nila mukha dw teletubbies! hahah! un ba ang pinag-palitmo sa mga kbatch at mga frnds mo sa surigao? grl nman! wat happend to ur taste? wel, nwei, mukha namn mhal tlga siya! but still... nwei, sori.... enuf na!heheh!

nung mga lasing n mga tao, aba! ng-trip ang ibang loko na mg-nature tripping! etong c congressman (we call him that kse filing sikat at yabang) humithit ng humithit, e 1st time pla nya! ngma-galing pa! kainis tlga! ayun, nsira-an ng bait... hndi makauwi.. pasalamat ka at mabait c ronnel... hinatid ka sa bhay mo! cyempre, hindi ko ulit na-control ang sarili ko kya dun p lang sa inuman, hiniritan ko na c congressman! pano ba nman! inis n nga ako dhil hndi ko gusto ang ginawa nila kse sobrang amoy ganja na buong place tpos mgyayabang pa! sori to say pero tlgang feeling ko ay na hiritan ko siya ng below the belt but then, he deserved it anyway!

at eto pla, start p lang ng party, nka-kaisang tagay p lang ang mga tao e may nag-away na! tama bang magtapunan ng spaghetti at royal? hahah! e kse mga cra ulo din! kaartehan! natakot tuloy ung ksamang visitor nung ngtapon ng spaghetti... he asked me: "ganito ba talaga kayo dito?" sagot ko nman: "wla lang yan... light p nga lang yan e, mamaya... pag lasing na ang mga tao, magpapatayan na yang mga yan! ok lng yan,, eto inom ka muna..." aba! hindi nakapag-react, sbay tulon ng laway nya at nag-aya umuwi! hahah! sensya na ha! madali pla cia matakot... hndi ko nman alam un! heheh!

well, overall.. the night went well and really fun... at siempre, the nxt day when everybody woke up (kse most dun n natulog eh) at sober nlng mga tao, laitan portion n nman! hahah! wait for the pix, upload ko soon... =)

i'm RAVISHING, i know! hahah!

2005-09-08T03:20:00.000-07:00

kse nghahanap c gina ng post, eto na... bc kse kya now lang ngka-down time! hahah!

y do i say im ravishing? actually, frnd ko ang ngbansag nyan.. pano b nman kse? mukhang namamayagpag yata ang ganda ko lately... khit san! hahah! well nwei, eto ang malupit na story...

TAMA BA NA MAGPAKILALA sakin sa kalagitnaan ng SEND OFF for the BARRISTERS? and guess who? hahah! my friends and i were standing near the gates of La Salle to give moral support to our barristers (all law students do that!) and then, umurong pala ng place ang mga friends ko so when i looked at my side... may tumayong 2 men. they look formal and of age. tpos bgla ngtanong sakin ung isa, will call him M for the mean time (para may surprise kung sino! heheh! )
M: hi, are u a law student?
me: yes, sir.
M: What year?
me: 2nd year.
M: where?
me: San Sebastian po.
M: (offering his hand for a shake) MAYOR ECHEVERI.
i was surprised ofcourse tpos nkipag-shake hand lang dn me and said nothing. and then sabi nya, "when you graduate, you go to my law office ok? it's Echeveri Law Offices". Sagot ko nman, ok sir. thank you. tpos i thought ok na... tama b nman na pilitin nya ako kunin number nya... so pra wlang gulo kse mukhang nakainom c mayor e, kinuha ko... tpos when im about to save it, he mentioned again... Mayor Echeveri. tpos he was talking to me pa na parang gusto nya itxt ko agad cia... e mejo kinabahan ako... i said nlng na excuse me sir but i have to go now.

o db? as early as now, may affiliation na akong law firm pag grad ko! safe na ako! hahah! kso as if papatulan ko un no? ano ako? mistress? ofcourse not! =)

at eto pa, share ko... ibang instance...

i attended a forum when my superior told me na wag ko dw hiwalayan yung lawyer n nag-question sa open forum kse gusto dw magvolunteer sa amin nun... after the forum, nilapitan ko nga and introduced myself. i asked him if he has a calling card or any contact numbers.. he gave me his name tag at dun nya cnulat number nya... sabi nya: can i also write my email address here? ciempre i said "sure" and then he told me... "i was also at Club Filipino, u were there,. u spoke ryt?" i smiled and said yes...

naisip ko tuloy... gosh! he remembered me! e he kinda look good p nman! PWEDE! heheh!

name analysis

2005-08-29T22:42:00.000-07:00

i read from choleng and ectcho's blog this name analysis whatever and it triggered my curiosity so here's what my name says of me:

Although the name Paula creates an active mind and a restless urge to explore new ideas, we emphasize that it causes a superior, interfering expression whose favorite expression is "I know." This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses in the solar plexus, worry, and mental tension.

As Paula you seek change, travel, new opportunities, and new challenges. Your active, restless nature demands action and you dislike system and monotony. As you are versatile and capable, you could do any job well, although you would not like to do menial tasks. Having considerable vision, you could be adept at formulating new, more effective ways of doing things. You could organize the work of others, though in your impatience to see the job done efficiently, you would likely step right in and do it yourself. You could work well in sales and promotion, and would not be afraid to risk a gamble as the name gives you much self-confidence.

well, it's kinda true... hahah! what u think? hndi ba? heheh!

check yours at : http://www.kabalarians.com/cfm/DisplayNameAnalysis.cfm

quote for fun but TRUE

2005-08-25T20:51:00.000-07:00

"NEVER GET INTO FIGHTS WITH UGLY PEOPLE, THEY HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE."

sa mga DR peeps, miss ko na kau! tandaan ang quote na yan ha! kya... tigilan na c dilanggalen! hehehe! =D

RED LIGHT DISTRICT

2005-08-23T21:48:00.000-07:00

So, it’s been quite a while na nagpost ako...mejo bc lang kse...well, nwei here’s something that’s really memorable? Or should I say, exciting? Or maybe funny? Heheh! Well, be the judge yourself...open nman ang comments eh... heheh!

I was at clark, pampangga during the weekend for a planning… that nyt, I txtd Kenny asking him if he could bring me out kse finish na ung agenda nmin for that day (that was Saturday) but he was unsure pa daw if he could or watevr plans, he’ll txt me nlang dw… suddenly, meron pa pla kmeng lakad (kme ng mga kasama ko sa planning)! It was a nyt out dw! So, we went out. And guess wer kme napunta?

DAMN! RED LIGHT DISTRICT nga talaga ang Clark! We went bar hoping or cge na nga, club hopping! We were looking kse for a place na meron kmeng table… and so, an dmi namn napasukan na mga club who had their own share of specialty! Pagbaba ko p lang sa car, I was already laughing… cguro kse I couldn’t imagine that I’m going inside one of those establishments (cguro GAY BAR, pwde pa! dhil pangarap nmin un ng bst frnd ko ever since… heheh!) but on the other hand, I was left with no choice kse I’m with a group and alangan nman maiwan ako alone db? Also, a part of me really wanted to so that I could experience and know for myself anong meron sa loob ng mga club na yan! At kung tlgang totoo ba ang mga naririnig ko from guy friends (specially, dhil if I remember it ryt, nagging cause ng away nmin ng ex ko yan dhil he’s going to a beerhauz w/ his frnds! Hahah!)

So yun nga,..it was my first time to enter such establishments, although I’ve been to bars na merong ng-leledge dancing or ngwawalang mga girls but this is different… may pinasukan kme na ang mga babae ay nsa 2nd floor na may parang terrace or so… nka-white glittery bikinis cla… an dming tao! if I’m ryt, dollhouse ang name nung club… pero since ang habol nga nmin ay table, lumabas kme dun…dun pa lang, umiral na ang aking pagiging SUPER EXAGERATEDLY OBSERVANT… kapansin-pansin kse na ung iba ay hndi naman sexy plus, d p pretty… nwei, we went inside another club, un nman may sumasayaw in front na nka orange skirts ang white polo na nka tie sa front, wasn’t able to observe properly kse dun cla sa mejo discreet part and hndi rin kme nagtagal dun kse walang table.. next stop, may nagsasayaw n nman pero this time, konti lang cla… mga 3 cguro so prang ang dating ay bida ung nsa gitna and nka bikinis dn cla… and ang tlagang napasukan nmin ay ang Owl’s Nest. Wlang choice coz that was the only club that can accommodate us with a seat… the girls were in black bikinis and we were seating in front of them. they were in a platform at the center of the club and they were in a line, some having a post of their own… madami clang ngpeperform, cguro mga atleast 12… the first thing I noticed is that they looked really young, I think they are minors… tapos hindi naman ganon ka sexy, ung isa pa dun parang nanganak na! at eto pa, walang face value! As in… if kilala nyo c dilangalen, mejo mga ka-uri nya! HAHAHA! Naisip ko nga at that moment na mas pretty pa c yaya ng pamangkin ko… aside from that, wlang ka-caress-caress sa katawan! My gosh! And eto pinakamalupit… WALANG EFFORT khit konti sa pagsasayaw! Ung iba nakahawak lang sa post tpos parang ung ulo lang ang gumagalaw (sana ma-picture out nyo!).

How can a customer enjoy such? HELLO! Lokohan nga nmin na ang mga dancers dun ay lagging walng gana! Kulang sa vitamins at minerals! Mukhang mga malnourished! And how funny, meron 1 dun na tlagang todo sayaw pero parang hip hop ang sinasayaw nya at siya ang least blessed ng face value… sa bagay, sa sayaw nlng nya idadaan ang kulang sa kanya db? Heheh! Because of curiosity, we inquired… para mag table ng girl, bibilhan mo lang pala cla ng lady’s drink w/c cost P120… kso no time limit… sbi kse ng mga guys n ksama nmin, ung ibang bar dw, 1 drink per hour lang… when u say no time limit, it means they can order as many as they want kse may commission pla cla dun…unfortunately, we were not able to ask pano pag take home! Hahah!

At that point na puro panlalait ang gnawa ko, I heard a comment saying na “e yan ang gusto ng mga Kano e.” True enough, kse despite evrythng, may kumukuha pa dn sa knla na foreigners. Sbagay, foreigners love exotic beauty ryt? Hahah! Also, , naisp ko.. how do they feel kaya na may mga girls na nanonood sa kanila? sobrang awkward cguro ng feeling… I was with a number of girls dn kse at that time although there were guys… and in fairness, may kasama akong lawyer na natatawa rin at naawa sa knla… Sbi nga ni Kenny when I txtd him, ganon dw tlga un kse legal un dun…

Nwei, we went out na dn finally. We went to this said club/ bar kse we heard na meron dw ngshoshow dun… but unfortunately, wlang show pag Saturday! Sayang at hndi na maximize an aming exposure trip! Hahah! Pero grbe, sa labas lang nun, may nagbebenta ng Viagra, etc… Ibang clase tlga!

We went home na dn… I cant imagine how things became legal there! Human capitalism? And u know what? I didn’t feel good about it. It was an experience but it was a sad realization… kawawa naman ung mga girls na na-eexploit at a young age although, they have nman contributory negligence kse I bet they chose to do it for money.

The next day at breakfast, sbi ng mga guys nming ksama na meron dw ngshow sa katabing bar lng ng hotel! Loko mga un! Hnd kme sinabihan… d tuloy nmin na witness! Pero the show was not nman d sin show dw… it was more of a maximum performance show! Whatever that is,.. and the name of the club? Pink lady or sumthing? They asked dw y? kse dw lhat ng girls dun ay pink ang nipples! Hahahah! Grbe ito…

Well, im just sharing my experience na existent tlaga ang mga ganon… a fact and a reality…Hndi ko tlga kinaya… tawa lang ako ng tawa d whole nyt! Nxt tym, sana gay bar nman! Heheh!

new work!

2005-08-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

i have a new work,.. i started just this monday and so far, so good... i'm currently working in a Non-Government Org in QC which deals of trade and economic issues... its called Fair Trade Alliance... at dahil mahirap and mejo complicated sya i-explain... pra malaman nyo further what i'm up to, visit nyo nalang:

www.fairtradealliance.org

heheh! ang sarap ng life dito kse wlang oras... provided u produce the output, ok na... aside from that, exciting and challenging kse there's always something new everyday and u learn really a lot! plus... it's not a ROUTINE job! heheh! pero well, its just my 1st week kya let's see further... wish me luck!

and PS people, miss ko na kayong lahat and khit papano, nkakamiss dn ung chismis galore! =p

site under construction

2005-08-13T06:36:00.000-07:00

feels good to finally change my blog skin... nagsawa na kse ako sa pink eh! heheh! nwei, di ko pa mahanap ung archives and ung photos, pti tagboard... alam nyo nman n mejo newbie pa ako sa html! well, don't worry guys kse i'd be asking drake to fix it for me! hahah! CALLING DRAKE! heheh! thanx in advance... =P

nwei, gusto ko lang i-share na finally after a long time, nakasakay na rin ako ng LRT 2! hahah! an tgal ko na gusto gawin to pero at long last, nagwa ko na.. had to go to gateway kse we watched the WEDDING CRASHER, w/c is really fun khit na 2nd time ko na cia napanood... heheh! i just love the line there that goes:

"true love is the souls recognition of a counterpoint with another..."

pamamaalam sa PS friends

2005-08-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

eto na... ang aking liham pamamaalam and pasasalamat sa mga nakatrabaho ko sa people support sa loob ng more or less 100 days...

it's kinda hard to leave u guys behind, however this personal choice w/c was a result of many sleepless nights, is going to be my move towards self development and to reach my goals.
thank u everyone for making my stay here fun... i'll surely miss the unending down-times, the chismisan and tawanan galore at ciempre pa, ang panlalait sa mga soulmates ni mark wong at ni oa! heheh!

kay drake at kay bullet: i always remember our lokohan portions na sabay2 tau matatanggal dahil sabay2 tau ng-job offer at pareho pa ng shift... well, thank God at hndi ngkatotoo...dahil sa iniwan nyo ako mag-isa due to ur transfer of accounts, it's now my turn of saying adios! surely, i'll miss u both kse b nman prang kau ang pnakamatagal kong nkasama at katulong sa mga kalokohan! at dhil lagi nyo akong dindalaw, guaranteed na dadalawn ko dn kau kht na wala na ako sa PS... drake, babalikan ko ung cd ko ha! heheh! miss ko na sharing portions natin. at bullet, miss ko na ang ating pagdedebate na most often than not, magka-iba tau ng view! heheh! n b4 i 4get, bullet... maraming salamat dahil inintroduce mo c dilangalen sakin! ang soulmate ni wong na tlga nmang ngpasaya sa buhay nmin dito sa dr pag down time! ckat n ckat n cia... dhil inintroduce ko na dn cia sa newbies! heheh!

gina&alma: mamimiss ko ang ating pag-aargue specially nung panahon ng mga rally at ang ating picnic ng kung ano2 chips! gina, salamat at pinasukob mo ako sa payong mo nung ulan at rally khit alam ko na naiinis ka sa mga wlang dalang payong during the rainy seasons! heheh! hanapin nlng kita sa megamall pag-nagsimba ako dun! at alma, ang promise mo ha,,, txt mo ko pag may gimik kau! heheh!

des: ikaw ang una ko naging frnd sa pgpasok ko sa ps n an dmi n rin natin sharing! heheh! thnx for the msgs na nkakatawa at sa frndship in general... gigimik pa dn tau aryt?

mark: mwong! WAT?? heheh! inuman natin i set mo ha! at ung promise kong sketch pad, nxt time na pag naubos na ung bnigay sau ng gy rep na hnd mo alam ang panagalan! hahah! at pala, sori sa panlalait sa mga soulmates mo ha! hahaha! lol.

kenny: thanx for introducing the blog world to us! n for patiently helping us n answering our queries evrytym there's a prob w/ blog! DIOS ka tlga ng blog! hahah! n im gonna miss our conversations specially regarding politics n stuff dhil pareho p tlga tau ng stand lalo na against susan roces! =P

mother love: thanx for the patience and understanding uv given me as my sup specially w/ regard to my lates n absences... will miss d way u say... "O guys, no personal windows ha!" heheh! n ofcors, will miss ur sobrang daming kwento!

lester, raymund, noel and totus: sa wlang humpay na kakulitan nyo lalo na pagmagkakasama kau... mamimiss ko un! hehehe! at dble, may discount sa mga annulment cases nyo pag naging lawyer na ako(sana!) congrats dn pla sa mga bagong dadi at magiging dadi ult! kay lester, ok plan mo! gudluck! sali nyo nman ako sa nxt inuman... txt nyo ko ha! heheh!

joanne and karla: congrats to u both in advance for ur upcoming babies w/c i know u'll be concieving on the same month! how exciting! n ofcors, hu wudnt miss karla's being an irate agent and joanne hus always EOP! heheh!

oa: na kahit tahimik ay bgla nlang tatawa, meaning palihim na nanlalait! heheh! at sana masaya ka na dahil u finally found ur soulmate in PS kso parmi cla ng prami, sana hnd ka maguluhan! heheh! mamimiss ko ang paghahangaroo mo... at ang simpleng kakulitan

don: na pag tumatahimik ay alam mong may pinagkaka-abalahang bago! wish ko sau ay mabayaran ka ng PS sa mga tech inventions mo! heheh! n ciempre, mamimiss ko ang kwentuhan sa pantry pg ngkakasabay tau ng lunch n sa pgbati mo sakin tuwing nakikita mo ako with ever raised voice na "Oh! buti at andito ka na!" or "Oh, ano n nman nangyari sau? Parang an tagal kita hndi nkita ah!" heheh!

jr, anna & marky: tau2 n nga lang ang natira ay iiwan ko pa kau! heheh! sori pero ganun tlga buhay! jr at sa knyang mala-LOLOng buhok at ang pgrefer sakin kay ric na gwapo dw sabi ni des kso wla akong tym! at ciempre ang kanyang never ending na "coz it's like prang u know..." heheh! peace! kay anna, na laging ngfoforward ng mga quotes or watevr emails... pwde mo p rin ako forwardan girl sa yahoo mail ko kso wag lang exag spam ha! at marky, slamat sa pagpalit kay bullet sa pagdala ng pandesal kso minsan lang! heheh! n if i remembr, pinadala p kta ng charger dati... thnx dn!

bob: sandali lng tau ngkasama dito but i know na will see each other often pa... galingan mo ha! at pag-isipan ang future! heheh! and i bet will be neighbors soon! heheh

park: na khit hnd tau ganun k close e ntutwa ako dhil someone can relate to me as regards the rigidities of law school...n by the way, iv read ur blog! i-link ko ha! heheh!

c leo at ang kanyang nwawalang teddy bear..heheh! (sa kumuha ng bear ni leo at alam mo kung cno ka, miss na dw nya masyado yan... ibalik mo na! heheh)

c jane at ang nakaka-inggit nyang mabilis na pagkatulog kse if ako un, hundred years muna bgo makatulog at ang kanyang contrabando

rj: na dito ko nlng ulit nakita after 8 yrs... schoolmate ko kse cia b4! heheh!

kay ms. shey n ms. ilen na nagsi-sign ng pto or swap form ko pag rest days ni love

c ea n mia: na wlang humpay ang chismisan pagksama mo kso nalipat n ng account

joy: na khit sandali lang tau ngsama ay d ko makalimutan ang pagcocountdown mo wen 1 minute nlng log-off na

sa buong BATCH 12 ng DR na karamihan ay nalipat na ng account... jt, miss n kita. kim, at ang kanyang sari2 store na balita ko ay sumisikat na bilang buding, rheena na hndi mo akalaing malakas dn palang mang-asar at mambara lalo na wen it comes to virus talks, heheh! at sa lhat pa na hndi ko nabanggit...

sa BATCH 167 ng PS na ngayon ay nasa iba't-ibang accounts na... millet,billy, eric, at sa lhat... miss ko na kau! hndi na tau ngkikita ng sobrang tgal na! set nman tau ulit ng gimik at inuman... bsta, txt nyo lang ako... game ako! khit na ba lagi nyong tinatapat sa rest days nyo... heheh!

at sa lhat ng mga tao sa DR at sa PS na in any way, became part of my PS life... pati kay manong froilan na lagi akong binabati sa pagpasok at pag-uwi ko!

i'll surely miss u all guys... rest assured, that even if i wont be visible, i'm just here in case u have gimmicks and stuff! heheh! seriously, im just one txt away and i wont hesitate to be of help if in case u need 1... don't worry, as the song goes... "Goodbye doesn't mean will never be together again" kaya nga naimbento ang cell phone eh! heheh! and also, i'll continue to update my blog evry now and then for u not to miss me so much! HAHAHAH! ingat kaung lhat and c u wen i c u... mwah!

read on!

2005-08-03T06:44:00.000-07:00

i just copied this part from an email sent by anne borja but it's so full of meaning and i really love it! this is just so timely and exactly what i need.

"I'm convinced that the only thing that kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find what you love.And that is as true for your work as it is for your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking. Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart,you'll know when you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until you find it. Don't settle."

from the message of the CEO of Apple&Pixar in a commencement activity - Steven Jobs

resignation letter

2005-08-03T06:25:00.000-07:00

I submitted my resignation letter yesterday... its kinda sad to leave friends, who in any way became part of ur daily life, behind. however, as stated in my resignation letter...

"this was not an easy decision and took a lot of consideration. nevertheless, i am confident that this decision would be better for me and would help me move towards my goals and development."

enough said.

to my family in DR... specially to LOVESTER, will miss u guys! but hey! this is not yet my goodbye letter... i'll be posting a comprehensive blog if tuloy na tuloy na ang aking pag-alis... just wait for it at special mention kaung lhat dun! heheh! =)

finally made up my mind!

2005-07-26T00:09:00.000-07:00

i've been thinking things over and over and finally, coz of a certain happening, i figured out what i really want! But still, there are gray areas left, areas that need more thinking and consideration... areas that demands unequivocal determination.

the speech i delivered, being the youth representative, in Club Filipino for the conference "National Development in Global Trade Talks" served as my eye-opener and made possible my realization of what i really want. The speech was one that empowered and urged the youth to possess a hope and sense of idealism and to "choose what's right and not just what's convenient."

DEFINITELY!

i am an economic graduate and currently, a law student.and i am working in a call center. connected? of course NOT! but why am i in this job? basically because i need to earn money and although my mom is still very capable to support me with all my needs, i do not want to depend on her anymore. i am ashamed. i'm 21 turning 22 and a grad from a good school, meaning, capable of supporting myself already and my mom? she's 56 and is suppose to be relaxing and enjoying life, not working really hard. so y do i have to place all the burden of my survival to her when i can do so on my own? that is why i am working.

however, i have concerns. i do not find my work fine. well, honestly, working in my account is fun since i don't get to recieve a lot of calls a day and therefore, have time to study. also, my mind is not overworked bec. my job doesn't entail a lot of thinking and after shift, u leave everything behind. no work or papers to finish or bring at home.

BUT i am not satisfied and contented. THIS IS NOT ME! when i probe deeper, i always end up saying that i am SO UNDEREMPLOYED! my skills do not match with my work. SAYANG. admittedly, call centers pay very well. unfortunately, though i want to earn, i also want a fulfilling job.

i have weighed things already. CONCLUSIONS: i want to earn but at the same time, i want to do something with a cause.

sorry to say, pero i don't want to work just to have money. i really want a job that is connected with my course.. a job that would require my skills and knowledge. Also, i want a job that is for a cause. something that would utilize my mind and not leave it decomposing. i am a person who wants to get involved with social issues. one that has to say about almost everything. i am not growing nor learning from my job. i am not satisfied. i need fulfillment and i want to grow as a person, not only through my daily life's experiences, but as well as through being engaged in something with a cause, something that covers a wide-range of arena and not limited to just selling satellites.

i am happy with the people i'm working with. they're all fun and accomodating. but, although i'm sorrounded with jolly people, good working condition, great facilities AND an income way up above the daily wage, there's still something missing. it's the inspiration and the urge, the drive and motivation to work hard and excel. i need a job that's gratifying even if it doesn't pay as much as the call centers do.

now that i've settled the issue of what i really want... there's still something hanging.. it's this question: where will i find the job that i want? ofcourse i don't want to depend on my mom again for support even if it'll be for a short period only.

as of the moment, i have to deal with the reality first and take steps to achieve the ends one at a time. eventually, i know life will never be greater for me. all i know is that i'm taking actions towards CHOOSING WHAT'S RIGHT and NOT WHAT"S JUST CONVENIENT.

PS: to all working in call centers: i do apologize if in any way, it seems like im downgrading the job or making you feel low. that is not my intention at all specially because PS had supported my existence for the past months and i had a great time workin with call girls/boys/waiting and 3-way calling people as well.heheh! =D

GOODLUCK TO ME!!!

a week out of work!

2005-07-24T00:07:00.000-07:00

whew! just got back from work after 5 days of being away... but ei! i wish it was because i went on vacation or had a rest.. unfortunately, i was sick and until now, i still have d virus! hehe!
nwei, here's what transpired the past week...(maraming kwento to na dpat ay iba-ibang blog pero naipon, heheh)

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MONDAY:
i really felt sick the moment i woke up but i cant call in sick anymore since it was already 4.10 and so i have to go to work, also, kse andito c mom nung time na un kaya ayoko mag-stay at home.
sbi nga ng Cx ko: "is that colds, u better take a rest"
when i went to school later that afternun, hndi ko knaya pumasok ng 2nd subject ko since hndi ako nkpag-aral, at wla n ako sa condition mag-isp dhil i was already chillin, im having fever na pla...

wen i went out of school to go home, may lumapit sakn na bading na ewan and tried to approach me to talk, sa sobrang tgal ng intro nya na feeling ko ay hihingi lng dn ng pera, i said "i'm really sori pero i don't have time for this kse po i'm really sick and kelangan ko na po umuwi." Akalain mo ba nman cnabihan ako na bastos dw dhil kinakausap dw nya ako tpos kala dw nya im educted, etc... and worst, parang he's cursing me pa tpos he was walking fast but then constantly looking at me and he even stayed sa tapat of where i was ng mejo mtagal na galit na galit pa dn... hello? may sakit na nga ako, ganon pa mangyayari!

at eto pa, walang masakyan na khit ano kse uwian nga nman so an dming tao plus umuulan p! i was thinking na khit ano una magstop sa harap ko, sasakay na ako pero sana taxi kse nga konti nlng, mgcocollapse na ko dhil sobrang sama ng pkiramdam ko.. after 30 mins, nakasakay n dn ako and wen i arrived home. i slept agad w/out aircon or electric fan but still, ang kapal ng kumot pero nilalamig pa dn ako.

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TUESDAY:
i woke up realizing n hindi pla ako nkapagbihis galing school. still the same, nilalagnat pa dn ako pero wat surprised me was when i opened my cp, may txt na c duane saying: "ginawan kta additional talking points pero hindi cia speech, c u later!"

WHAT?!? un n pala ang araw ng aking speech sa Club Filipino and OMG! i havent prepared for anything, i didn't know what to do and i'm having fever, add to it pa, ang aking very good sounding "ubong may plema and never ending sipon" (yuck! ang baboy! heheh!)

i pleaded to them kung pwede iba nalang kse tlagang hindi ko kaya pero no choice, walang pumayag and wlang malakas ang loob kaya ako din, NO CHOICE! so i got up and went there.

i arrived there at past 9 am and the conference entitled "DEFINING NATIONAL DEVELOPMENT ON GLOBAL TRADE TALKS" was suppose to start 8am. Buti nlng, uso ang Filipino time kaya we started 15 mins. past 9. at eto ako, kabado dhil sobrang unprepared. tinawag p ung name ko ng host bec. they want me to be seated in the presedential table with the rest of the speakers, among whom where: Sen. Tañada, Usec. Ordoñez and Rico Alfilier (the pres. of Phil. Cement Industry who was really a charming man, seemed so intellectual and formal, heheh!) Shox! ofcourse, i didn't seat there kse bsyds sa ako lang ang bata, hindi ako dressed while silang lahat nka-barong! and most of all, kse pag umupo ako sa front, e di nkikita ako ng buong participants na nagkcram gumawa ng speech... at isa pa, kelangn ko ng help mg-isip ng ilalagay sa speech dhil ngccram n nga ako, may sakit pa!

so ayon, kaye helped me w/ the concept of the speech and finally, it was my turn in the rostrum. ehem. kinakabahan yata ako.. and so i delivered my piece. afterwards, Sir Bobby was making the "ok" sign looking at me, kse hndi tlga ako umupo sa harap e. then, during lunch, he went to me to congratulate and said: "great job!". so we had a great lunch kso bitin daw sa rice sabi ni kaye and kuya errol. heheh! tpos un pla, lumapit sa amin si Usec. Ordoñez while we were eating and then he asked me, "how many members do u have?" lagot! kse im not sure na dhil we've been a bit inactive for the past months since bc na lhat (btw, FYI: ang nakasulat kse after my name sa presedential table and ang sinabi sa introduction ko before i spoke was: coordinator for the Youth Advocates for Economic Progress [YAEP], kme tlga nagstart nun and it's till existing though mejo inactive lately.) buti nlang may follow-up Q cia w/c i was able to answer nman w/ certainty. later that afternoon when the workshop was about to take place, i was standing besides Rico Alfilier and he said "great one u got there!", i smiled and said, thank you sir. and then he asked again "where did you get your quotes?". Dahil sa i really don't know the answer, i just smiled. and here's another blooper... ciempre, dahil sa may sakit ako, unending ang pagbisita ko sa best frnd ko dat day na c Restroom para itaboy c plema, heheh! while there the girl form newsbreak asked me: "from what school are you?", i answered: "san sebastian-law" and then she said, "your undergrad and where?", i said "ust-economics", then she said "great. so, are u a student leader all your life?" patay n nman ako dito, and since mejo alanganin ang pwde ko isagot, i said "kinda" with a smile, sabay labas sa restroom! hehehe!

ayun, the day went well nman though may sakit pa din ako... buti nlang i was still able to deliver my speech ng maayos and nabawi naman sa mga commendations i got from great men. heheh!

and here's some phrases or parts of my speech w/c i loved the most (share ko lang, heheh):

a year ago, i was excited to graduate and find a good job, but when i was there, i realized na ang hirap pala dahil aside sa mismatch ng skills and jobs available, ang prob tlga ay wlang trabaho...

(the following galing kay duane, w/c i used... thanx duane!heheh!)
let us choose what's right and not what's convenient...

we have to choices: to accept things as they exist or accept the responsibilty of changing them...

the best principle lies in human choice...

at eto, gusto ko tlga w/c i used as ending:
heres a fact... the Philippines has more geniuses 60% over what Japan has. But how come were left behind? i bet 70-80% of it is rooted on our economics. Maraming salamat po.

actually, dahil sa forum na yun, i came to realize very important matters in my life, but since it needs great and wide explanation, then i'd be making a different blog entry for that. heheh!

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WEDNESDAY:
i woke na masama pa rin ang pakiramdam ko. feeling ko nabinat ako dahil nga pinilit ko pumunta sa conference. hindi ako makabangon and makapg-aral pero i have to go to school kse i'm only allowed 5-hr absence sa 2 unit subject and the prof counted dw ung 1st day, 1st meeting, e late enrollee ako so counted na un. in short, couldn't afford to be absent anymore dhil ma-tetechnical na ako. Buti nlang, there was a talk on taxation that we were required to attend kya hindi natuloy ung quiz and tumakas ako after staying there for 30 mins pra makauwi and makarest.

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THURSDAY:
i woke up ng 3.30 na nilalagnat n naman and worst, c mommy ay nagsusuka dhil inaatake ng gall bladder prob nya! ayaw pa kse pa-operea dhil takot! tpos inu-ubo din cia so nagsasagutan kme ng ubo at sabi ko nga, "ma, pilitin mong wag lumala yan kse if in case, hindi kita madadala sa hospital kse hindi rin ako makabangon sa sama ng pakiramdam ko." i called in sick again then after a while, i recieved a txt from Ms. Love saying na NCNS daw ako for that day! e pano un? i cant afford to go to work p tlga,.. bsyds, i got nman a confirmation number form workforce... cguro, ngkaroon lng ng mis-communication.

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FRIDAY:
masama pa rin ang pakiramdam ko! pero hindi na ko pwde mag-absent dhil although hindi ng-chechek ng attendance ung prof, once called, 5 na agd grade ko and she shuffles pa nman d class cards so possible na u'l get called more than once per day. shit! i have to go to school but still, hindi ako mkapag-aral dhil dont feel good.

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SATURDAY:
i slept ng 6am na kse i have to finish my case digest na isusubmit that day. i woke up 9.30 kse have to read dhil pag-iinitan ako ng prof for sure dhil sa 2 consecutive meetings absent ko and ganon tlga nature nya. Class starts at 11. Buti nlng late ang prof so i still have time to browse my book and fortunately, i was able to answer all her Qs, un nga lang w/ a lot of interruptions dhil sa pag-ubo ko!

on the other hand, wasn't able to go to class for my next subj and ofcourse, i got 5 for the recit. babawi nlng ako nxt week by volunteering. mahal nman ako ni sir eh. heheh!

that night, we went to see my uncle doc for check up kse nga ngayon lang ako nagkasakit ng matagal and weird part of it is every afternoon, seems like lalagnatin ako. Findings: kaya pla ako ngka-fever kse ung sipon ko went down to my throat w/c triggered the cough and na-infect na. Luckily, buti dw hindi pa bumaba sa lungs w/c may cause bronchitis or pneumonia. so now, im into medication. antibiotics lang nman.

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So, that's how my week went. And lahat yata ng kakilala ko isa lang ang sinabi: "magpahinga ka kse, masyado mo ng naabuso katawan mo. wla ka na ngang tulog, gumigimik ka pa! ayan, finally, nagreklamo na ang body mo!". OO nga nman, pero its so impossible for me to sacrifice my social life! tpos dadagdagan pa ng ate ko before ako tiningnan ni Doc na "bawal ka na dw uminom all your life!" WHAT?!? i need HELP. heheh! i'm a lot better now and hopefully, if i'll get enough sleep later and tom since no classes then i'd be very well by the end of the week.

at nga pala, 1st time ko nag log in sa PS Center kanina... ang ganda ng building namin,. feels good to finally be there! at eto pa, pagpasok ko knina early, ang gwapo ng kasabay ko sa elev! heheh! =)

STOP and THINK! damn w/ d rallies!

2005-07-12T05:24:00.000-07:00

OMG! after my shift, i was surprised to see that close n nman ang mga underpass at ang kahabaan ng ayala ay crado na dn with matching portalets sa tpat ng ofis ko! at cno ba nmang hndi maiinis? wla ka nang masakyan, kelangn mo pa mglakad ng malayo pra makauwi, umuulan pa! buti nlng nakita ko c jayna, at naki-sukob ako sa payong nya... salamat po!

at eto pa ang catch, nakita nyo ba ang mga rallysta? sori to say pero i am sure na mga BINAYARAN cla! mga HAKOT! akalain mo na pati sulok nung name ng landbank ay merong mga taong nkatago na animo'y taong grasa na naka-upo sa nilapag nilang karton at nakikipagkwentuhan sa mga ka-uri nila na tila ay naghihintay sa rasyong pagkain o give-aways o watevr galing sa mga promotor ng rally na un sa ayala na gustong paalisin c GMA sa pwesto!!

hello? hndi ba kau ng-iisip? GMA is FIRM and she will remain that way for sure. don't compare her to erap bec. there is no point of comaparison. besides, be mature enough people! if we oust her in the position, cnong ipapalit nyo? c NOLI?damn!! mag-abroad nlang taung lhat kung ganon! isa pa, ok fine, provided, for the sake of argument, na talagang nagkasala cia, can't we just try to forgive and instead give credits to what she has done so far and trust in her for more developments? if we remove her thru people power or watevr rally, then what? we'll continue to remove the next presidents with more people power? it's not a solution! if GMA should be held liable for her lapse of judgement or mistakes, then let us do it in a VALID and PROPER manner, constitutionally-thru impeachment!

hndi lhat dpat dinadaan sa rally... come to think of it, what's the purpose of your rally? for the president to resign kse daw nccra na ang economiya, wla ng credibility ang gobyerno at iba pa. pero nman! nag-iisip ba kau? dahil sa mga ginagawa niyong wlang kwentang rally, e na-paparalyze ang certain areas and as such, ur even adding to the reasons of your complains! ur not doing anything to lessen but ur just worsening the scenarios! sa tingin nyo, magbabago ang economiya sa pag-rarally nyo? e pano kung mg-pull out ang mga investors dhil ur creating unstable peace and order situation? knino ung effect? e d satn dn! also, don't u think na dhil sa pagrarally nyo, nadadagdagan ang non-credibility ng government sa mata ng ibang bansa? OFCOURSE!

people, rally and protests are not always the solution to the problems we have. sometimes, u have to look at the other side of the coin to weigh the possibilties of a solution before acting upon it! let us not be deceived by the panlilinlang words of people, who in any way or another, may connection o may pangalan kse what we are not aware of: is that they are using us lang para sa kanilang mga pansariling interes! sana hindi tayo ma-uto ng mga selfish jan at maniwala nalng bgla... kung sumali man kau sa rally or protest, sana dahil sa reason na talagang uv taken evrything in consideration na and u beliv and stand for something for a cause, not bcoz of influence at lalo na dhil binabayaran kayo para gawin yun!ano yun? bagong hanapbuhay ba?

sana lang talaga ma-realize ng lahat na may epekto dina ang mga ginagawa ninyo... instead of rallying, magtulungan nalng tau! sana matapos na lahat ng ito dhil hindi lang ang gobyerno ang naabala at naapektuhan kundi sating lahat din ang masamang epekto! ITIGIL NYO NA ANG MGA RALLY! manalig nlang tau sa mandates of the constitution...

"we are a government of laws and not of men"

let us respect that.

TR!v!@ para sa mga tga-PS

2005-07-11T18:42:00.000-07:00

who is PETER PHAN?

paki-lagay nlng po ang sagot sa tag-board.
ang hindi mkasagot, hindi nagbasa ng mga articles regarding the compliance initiative watevr and if pumasa kau, then... NANDAYA KA! hahaha!

bawal ma-comatose!

2005-07-09T19:20:00.000-07:00

naisip ko na mg-post nlng ng bago dito kse ncomatause na ako since start ng shift ko! buti nlng nagigising ako pag may call! pano ba nman, dumerecho na ako dito sa work galing sa place ni jong! as usual, inuman galore dhil birthday ng someone there. (ehem, bawal pla pumasok ng nakainom sa work-sorry po. hindi nman ako lasing e n ok n ako! heheh)

nwei, nakatulog nman me ng 12-3 pero as soon as i went down, tama ba namang tagayan ka agad? at eto nman ako, lakas makisama, hindi makatanggi! heheh!

an saya! its been a month na kse since i bonded with them and i realized when i arrived there yesterday na i missed them pla and that an dami na pla nangyari! and ofcourse dhil tagal ko na sila hndi nakasama, e d tagal ko na dn cla hindi npag-tritripan! so ciempre, wats d use pa ng pagbansag nilang Queen sakin if hndi ko paninindigan? Queen dw kse me ng inuman at laitan... kakatuwa kse ciempre, pinagtripan n naman namin c toffy, as always, ang pet ng barkada! y pet? kse isa ciang turtle and kung bkt? mejo magulo at mahaba ang explanation nun! pero anyway, sosyal na c toffy ngayon dahil hndi na bao(bisaya word for turtle) or pagong tawag sa kanya dhil existent na c herbie! ung new movie ni lindsay lohan yta... heheh! at pikon c loko kya ngpakalayo2 samin, dun umupo malapit sa mga engr-tagalog frnds ni jong! heheh! (tof, sorry ha!)

and then, kung bakit ako maaga nagising e kse ang kulit na ng mga tao,, ginigising nila ung katabi ko at parang inaaway... sabi nila, nagbasag dw ng mga baso yun tpos nagsusuka... tpos nung bumaba nman ako at lumipat sa kabilang hauz, aba! an daming new faces... mga tga-mapua yta! and then ung isang nming frnd n girl, lasing na dhil nagdadrama na at kung ano2 n nman sinasabi! hahah!

e after a few lokohan, narealize ko na almost 4 na so i have to freshen up and change na (nag-baon kse ako ng clothes) kya ayun, umalis na dn me buti nalang may kasabay ako pag-alis. pauwi na dn kse c peter sa hauz nila kaya dinaan n nya me sa work muna and on d way, nagdadaldalan lang kme.. nilibre nya ako sa taxi! hehehe! thanx, nahiya nga ako eh kse dun p lang nman kme ngkakilala n ngkasama! nwei, engr nman cia na e! heheh! =D

vitamins for the eyes! hahah! =D

2005-07-02T22:54:00.000-07:00

OMG!!! close n kme ng crush ko! hahah! how funny na i got to talk to him coz of a conflict and prob in a certain subj in skul... we were having probs kse iba2 ang sabi ng SA bout d prof,, during our petty arguments and palnning on how to talk to the prof of the other class, aba! cningit nya ang introduction of himself and the 2 of his guy friends,, unfortunately, i don't remember their names anymore kc ang bilis ng turning of events n hnd ko nmalayan... all i remember is may R n C sa names na namention nya! thereafter, ngkasaby p kme sa elev, actually, sinamahan nya kme to confirm w/ the dean's office bout the prob.. my gosh! nkaktuwa cia kse he looks really good at alam mong mkulit n gago by nature! heheh!

tpos yesterday, pagkalabas ko ng restroom, nakasalubong ko cia, he's on his way to the restroom as well... he smiled at me (totoong smile ito!). ciempre, i smiled back with my ever-sparkling smile! feeling ko close n kme... hahah! *kilig*

at eto pa, i went to school pala early nung fri and guess wat? an dming gwapo! san kya cla ngtatago all this time? cguro, this is just my weekend... weekend na full of vitamins for the eyes kse yesterday also, paalis ako ng hauz, i saw my neighbor, finally after 2 months of stay there and u know wat? he's really good looking dn! panahon ba tlga ng pagkakalat ng mga gwapo ngayon! sana araw2 ganon! hahaha! lol.

i'm FLATTERED! =)

2005-06-27T20:26:00.000-07:00

i'm still young, i want to enjoy my life and settle when i'm ready and stable... but hey! i'm recieving marriage proposal alredi and whats funny? i'm NOT EVEN IN A RELATIONSHIP!?! buhay nga nman! hahaha! sobrang funny lng tlga pero come to thnik of it, isn't it nice to know na somebody just want to marry you? i mean, hello? after all d evil side u've shown, still, ur special for them...

i'm still 21... just of age but not yet ready for marriage but y on earth do i encounter marriage talks? a good friend and i, have long before made an agreement that by the time we're 26 and both single and unattached, kme nlng dw! it was actually made out of fun pero minsan, naiisip ko na he's taking it seriously kasi at times, he mentions it. though, he is currently attached. he's such a good friend and i'm comfortable being with him but i think we're not just compatible to be a couple.heheh! and just recently, i recieved a txt msg from someone from my past.. kamustahan lang about life and my school and work, i mentioned i'm coping up with work n school at the same time and asked him to pray for me to survive the rigidities of life.. to my surprise, he replied: opo. tpos pagkatapos mo skul, pakasal na tau! WHAT? hello man! i haven't even seen you for long! collapse! i told him to stop joking around pro he mentioned na how would he court me again daw, eh im so bc! funny tlaga... ciempre, i wudn't take it seriously pero i thought na it's possible kse way back, he was certain na he wanted to marry me... hay naku! nakaka-flatter lang nman tlga, =)

sometimes, nakakatuwa lang din tlga to recieve compliments or whatever u call it, even how small it is.. it lightens up the feeling specially when ur down and it brings u smile, thinking na people do appreciate u... kaya naman even with my tiring lifestyle right now, i i'm surviving still coz of the little gestures and words i'm recieving from the people around me... imagine? sobrang walang tulog and pagod ako pero lagi p din ako mganda sa paningin nila... hndi ko namn kasalanan to be born pretty ah! hehehe! lol. =D

kaya friends, do give compliments if possible but make sure u mean it and that the person addressed is worth it kse u'll never know how u lighten up someone's day with just your honest words.

manlait tau!

2005-06-25T20:57:00.000-07:00

P and F are two differnt letters and have different pronounciation and sound! tama ba naman na lhat yta ng narinig ko nagsalita sa orientation ng freshmen n transferees sa baste khapon ay may P and F defect? buti nlng nabawi sa galing ng line up ng mga prof na prenesent khapon... at eto pa, meron na sana isang leader ng org na wlang ganitong defect, pero helo B and V meron cia! PorgiB me Por Veing Mean ha! hahaha! at ang ngsalita for the school paper? wla ngang pronounciation defct pero she talks like uhm, u know, uhm! damn! tga school paper k p nman miss! kung nsa PS ka lng, minus 4 agad yan for fillers! hehehe! at ang pnaka malupit jan, ang last n ngsalita sa mga org... obviously kabado sya at hndi cia masyadong kaaya-aya sa paningin! harhar! pero worst, cnabi b nman nya na sori dw kse knakabahan cia dhil 1st time nya magsalita sa crowd. DAMN U! nag-lider ka pa ng org if hnd ka sanay sa pagsasalita sa hrap ng mga tao no?ano un? lokohan! well, expect mo nlng na bcoz of wat u've done last nyt, e wala n tlgang sasali sa org mo n MATINO.. pwera nlng sa mga kauri mo... sori , an sama ko! heheheh! =D

EXCUSE ME?

2005-06-19T14:45:00.000-07:00

EXCUSE ME. mhirap bang magsabi ng excuse me? nakaka-cra tlga ng araw... kagabi kse, nagcmba kme ni mom sa megamall n i dont know why, lhat ng tao, pasok-labas ang gnawa dun sa venue! n wat irks me is that hndi man lang cla marunong mag EXCUSE when they know na nakaka-istorbo cla sa mga tao sa paligid lalo na't the mass was on going! ok lng sana kung khit gestures nlng ng pag-eexcuse e, pero wala pa dn! buti pa ung mga parang chona mae ang dating, nakakapag-excuse khit na echos me ang dating! pero ung mga mukhang learned, aba! walang values at anong nakakainis is that ang yayabang pa ng way ng pagdaan... nkakabangga na nga kau, ang tataray pa! n hello? ok lng sana kung isang beses lng dumadaan... e pabalik2 at pareho2 ang mga taong dumadaan... cguro makati ang mga paa noon at hndi mtahimik sa isang lugar!

and isa pang pang-asar, ang iingay nung mga babae dun na wala ng ibang ginawa kundi magtxt! hello! nagcmba pa kau? sana ung mga taong ngpapacute lang at ngtetelepono, ay wag ng magsimba ng mabawasan nman ang sikip sa mga mass venues, kse nkaka-distract lng kau sa mga taong ang purpose ay magdasal tlga at magparticipate sa eucharistic celebration. not only that, hndi lang kau nkakadistract, panikip pa kau at ang iingay nyo pa! sana khit na hndi nyo tlga meant na magcmba n just doing it for watever reasons u have, e manahimik nman kau! bgyan respeto ang simbahan! hai!!!

khit na masama ang ugali ko n many ways, i have values din naman no? n i know how to act appropriately... sana kau din!

isang BATOK para sau!

2005-06-18T16:46:00.000-07:00

after a tiring week coz of enrolment and meetings and etc, i had a wonderful rest day! last thursday, i went out for a drink with 2 of my closest college-major friends: ryan and duane and with ryan's gf, also a frnd, pam.

eto po cla: (mukhang mga abnormal diba? heheh! lol.)

haven't been with them for long, the last time we went out ng inuman was early feb pa! we always plan to go out, kme mga blockmates ng ab gen kso d mtuloy2, dnt know why! unexpectedly, ngtxt ito c duane ng wed nyt saying if im available daw ng fri or sat nyt kse kelangan dw nya ng "ISANG BABATOK SA KANYA!"... hmmm... naisip ko, bkt kaya? wen i asked, sabi nman ni gago, wla lng dw! ay sus! as if hnd ko cia kilala no? im sure may prob ito or may nagbobother sa kanya... and ofcourse! i was right!

well, nwei, i txtd hm thurs morning sayng if pwde cia that nyt e d dat nyt nlng kse wla me work d nxt day n late afternun pa class ko nun... ciempre, game cia so to cut it short, natuloy nga kme... kmeng 4 as always! e di finally, natuwa c ryan dn kse sbi nya c pam nlng lagi nya kasama inuman n hanggang 2 bottles lang dw c pam... so ciempre, wat do u xpect? ang mga stockholder ng kittens before nagtipon? e d inuman galore! heheh!

we had as always, a great conversion. we tackled problems and developments of each one at c duane ang hot seat ngayon! kelangan pla ng batok ha! e d binigyan namin ng marami at marami pang ibang pang-aasar! kakatuwa tlaga... njoy na kme sa inuman pati kwentuhan, sobrang ganda... cguro nga kse tgal n nmin hndi ngkkita at ngkakasama wen nung college, e gabi2 kme nag-iinuman! while there, i realized how i miss them both! cla kse ung mga shock absorber ko plus cla rin ung mga tagabara sa mga kapalpakan ko and c duane? panira ng araw ko,, heheh! joke lng.. actually, d term is lagi kong ka-argue! c ryan nman? middleman nmin ni duane - pacifier! pero khit na ang loloko ng mga yon, i always feel special with them and comfortable! lagi rin maasahan khit mga cra ulo! i really had fun that nyt, sana nga we cud find tym to go out khit once a month? kso bc kme lhat kya very seldom lng kme ngkikita...

nwei, guys, if u happen to read this... WAG LALAKI ANG ULO! hahah! oo na, namimis ko kayo and natutuwa akong kasama kayo... salamat pala... sa pagtuturo ng mga katarantaduhan! kya frnds, eto... abnormal na dn ako( hndi physically ha, mentally lang!) hahah! lol.. seriously, thnx for d laughs... d company... d murahan tyms... d drinking sessions... n for simply being my friends! mishu na!

LOVESTER's performance level

2005-06-15T21:30:00.000-07:00

we had our team building at red box yesterday! ciempre pa, concert ni jayna at ni love ito! tlga nmang talentado ang mga kateam ko no... c jayna? diva ang dating kya nkakahiya kumanta dhil sa ganda ng boses nya at may nalalaman pang blending churva2! aba! malay ko ba kung ano yun! e bsta mkakanta lang ay ayos na ako! heheh!

ciempre, pagkarating p lng nmin dun e mejo kakaiba n ang feeling ko... pano ba nman? memories! hahah! pero nwala rin un eventually kse we had fun! ang kukulit ng mga kasama ko... hndi na makontento in simply singing their hearts out but kelangan tlaga with all the dance moves and the positions and performance level ito! an dami pa revelations ng talents! akalain mong rocker pla itong c karla! partida pa yan dhil she's preggy and c lester? hndi mo akalaing totoong CALL BOI! pano b nman? talo pa ang macho dancer sa moves nya! heheh! lol.

at ciempre pa... kung kme nag-enjoy,,, lalo na c etchos! if i know, OVERJOYED un last nyt... ang ganda ng view nya eh... hndi lng cia bsta natuwa sa singing career ni badong kundi pati sa talent portion nito...buti nga limited time lng kme dun kse if tumagal at nag-inuman, naku delikado! bka bumigay na c etchos totally! hahah! [excuse me etchos ha! *wink*]

independence day

2005-06-11T16:48:00.000-07:00

happy independence day po sa lahat!

sana hindi lang magsilbing araw ng paggunita sa ating kalayaan ang araw na ito kundi magsilbi ding araw ng kalayaan sa mga problema at iba pang ikinababahala ng bawat mamayan. ahem! na-impluwensyahan na yata ako ni bullet! hahah!

nwei, speaking of independence, ang galing ng timing ng day na to for me... coz just yesterday, two of my biggest worries just faded away... i got the result na sa entrance exam that i took so Welcome BASTE, here i come! heheh! also, the long moment of silence and distance between my sis and i finally came to end.

nakapila ako para bumili ng mr.&mrs. smith ticket khapon sa cinema, habang wala pa ung ksama ko, bglang may nreciv akong txt msg and to my surprise, it was my sis whom i got separated with in 2 months coz of a big quarrel. havent spoken to her since and havent even seen her also. she was inviting me to go to her place today for their house blessing.. i didn't find the words to tell her and was really uncertain on how to react.. so what i did, i waited for my companion to ask him of his opinion bec. he knows the details of the feud i had w/ my older sis.. he understood me pretty well kso he agrees with me na mahirap ung situation ko kaya all he adviced was... ikw! kung ano tlga nararamdaman mo...

it took me a while to respond.. i replied only nung natapos na ung movie na pinanood namin... and anong gnawa ko? ngpakatotoo... from then on, ngttxt n kme ng sis ko... ok nman, i feel na hnd na tlga cia galit and that we're trying to fill in the gap between us... ciempre, masaya ako kse i know na this news would surely make my mom happy coz she mentioned to me na she cries everynyt dw dhil nabobother cia sa nangyayari samn.. tho, i cannot deny na mejo ilang pa dn ako but i'll try to make up... sana when we see each other na, everything will work out just fine! wish me luck! =)

light behind darkness

2005-06-10T16:49:00.000-07:00

here's the story why i was so disappointed about not being retained, but hey! im a lot better now!

cno ba kseng hnding malulungkot? i didn't make it to retention for just .3%! kainis db? i mean sana man lang more than .5% o khit 1% pra madaling tanggapin... bsyds, many told me na pwede pa magpa-reconsider kso it'll take 2 wks dw and hello? start na po classes ds tues! pano pa un? wat if hnd ako mareconsider? e d hnd ako nkapag-enroll sa ibang skul? bsyds, dont want to waste time and effort anymore kse i realized, ok fine, if na-retain nga ako, tpos wat? by 2nd yr o 3rd yr, matatanggal dn? wag na! buti na ds early, atleast i would have more time to cope up!

i cried lang mga 2 days ago coz my lolodad talked to me over the fon, i really value his words so much and being the only lawyer in the family and the oldest, his the BATAS! and u know y i cried? kse sobrang nahihiya ako sa knya! ofcors, they were expecting a lot from me... but guess what he told me? "I HEARD FROM UR MOM THAT U WERE CRYING DW? IF I HEAR THE SAME AGAIN, PUPUNTAHAN KITA JAN AT SASAKALIN KITA!" hahah! o db? he was not disappointed any bit and he was even really supportive of me, comforting me saying that i make letter of reconsideration then i apply to other schools also and that its not in the school but its in the person dw... na khit na i graduate dw from HARVARD pa, if i dont know how to make discarte, wla rn dw mangyayari sa life ko! tama nga nman!

at that same day, my lolamom talked to me as well, she's an achiever all her life kya nhihiya dn me but what she told me was... evrythng will be alryt,, that it was just a challenge at eto ang malupit sa sinabi nya: "U ALWAYS GET WAT U WANT, PINA-FEEL LANG SAYO KUNG PAANO ANG HINDI NAKUKUHA ANG GUSTO!" oo nga namn! now, i knw how it feels...

tpos i talked to one of my classmates before, nung tym dat i was feeling well na... i told him, tanggap ko na and maybe i deserve it kse i really didn't spend all my time studying during the last school year but im not regretting kse i told him... atleast, I HAD A LIFE! and wat surprised me? he answered saying, "OO NGA NO, AKO BA? DID I HAVE A LIFE? PRANG WALA E, BAHAY LANG, KAIN, TULOG, ARAL AND SCHOOL" shox! he deserves to be retained nga nman khit irregular sya...

and finally, i was thinking things over and cguro eto na ang best rebuttal ko or best consolation for myself that brought out a positive light... i said, the LORD did this because He knows that i'm working already (kaya nya binigay ng ganon kadali ang work ko), then He knows that im so tamad to improve my study habbits and lastly, He's aware that i cannot give up my social life.. in short, HE still gave me everythng thats important to me, He just balanced my life and made things easier for me kse sa totoo lang, mahirap talaga sa Beda tho magaling... He wants me to become a lawyer but not necessarily giving up all the other things that are equally important in my life... my work, my social life, my family and friends... in the end, i think i STILL HAVE IT ALL! don't i? =p

WHY?

2005-06-06T16:36:00.000-07:00

whew! parang it's been so long since nag-update ako ng blog.. now, mejo mahaba-haba ang bagong post na ito...

i was wondering bout dun sa mga malas posts ko, tpos naicip ko, hnd cguro ung work n necessities ung pangatlong matinding malas kse ang gaan lng nun e and prang doesnt belong to the category... i was right! d 3rd storm came yesterday... ang pattern pla ng bad luck ay family, lovelife and skul... i bet now u guessed na wats d 3rd 1? ofcors its skul... finally, ang dreaded moment ng releasing of grades ng beda happened yesterday and wat else is new? marami ang hnd na retain and i was 1 of them...

how sad tlga! kse my mom is here n it was her bday yesterday den i have to tell d news! ofcors, i cried... i know it was my fault din bcoz i took skul for granted... grbe tlga! i was at skul ng 11am... then we waited for the results till 5pm... and what we recieved lang was a piece of paper w/c contains either "REGULAR", "IRREGULAR", or "NOT READMITTED"... so i got d last one... shit!!! it was like hell pouring on me! pero wat can i do, its over and done!

i admit evrythng was my mistake but then if id regret forever, wla rng mangyayri sakn... na-sad lng nman tlga ako kse nhiya ako sa mom ko... prang i let her down with the result but sobrng thnx kse she understood me pretty well and supported me all through out...thnx so much mom! ur the greatest! dhil dun, mejo ng-lighten up ung guilt ko...love u!

and thanx so much sa mga frnds ko hu wer there to guide me and make me realize thngs that helped lighten up what i was feeling. to BERNS AND MASHA(special mention lng)... u guys r the best! love u both! galing ng explanation nla sakn, specially c mash na she felt really sad for me and congrats girl kse u made it and i know u deserve it tlga coz i know how u sacrificed a lot for ur skul... and to berns, rily appreciate ur comforting me specially w/ ur situation dn...bsta, sama nlng ako wer u lipat ha,,, yoko mg-isa eh.. ayw yta tlga ako i-hiwalay sau e! heheh! o ayan, im joking na, in short... ok n ko! heheh!

nwei, sabi nga nila, u may lose sumthngs but dont lose d lesson... as evrybody said, maybe GOD has differnt plans for me... maybe HE gave that trial kse HE knows i'm strong n i can manage to stand up n start again. maybe HE also want me to learn from my mistake of taking law skul for granted... or MYT be, HE wants to make life easier for me kse sa totoo lang, hrap tlga sa beda(pero d best pa dn!heheh!)

tpos i came to think na an dmi dn pla good sides ng nangyari sakn... maybe it's DAD's way dn of sayng "no" to sumthng i'm asking bout... sbi ko kse before na if ma-retain ako, i'd join na tlga sorority... e ayaw yun ng Daddy(FYI lng po, my dad's dead already), kya cguro tlgang sinabihan nya c LOrd na wag nlng ako ma-retain pra hnd ako sumali... bsyds, i can still be a good lawyer tho im not a BEDAn graduate! db? tpos i realized dn, tma nga c berns, buti na ung maaga natanggal kesa nman ma-retain now tpos by 3rd yr, tanggal dn... n bsyds, i know life will really be easier outside beda! db? heheh! at most of all, im not alone! an dami ko ksama and wats fun? mga close ko pa mkakasama ko... hnd nga lang clang lhat pero lhat ng mga cra ulo at game sa katarantaduhan, ksama ko! gosh! i rily belong to that group..dont i? hahah!

but dnt worry mga naiwan sa beda, mgseset pa dn ako ng lakad for us... aryt? bsta,, to everybody, gudluck! wats important is dat we pass d bar n be lawyers sumday! =)

a LOT like LOVE

2005-06-01T19:56:00.000-07:00

"atleast, when i'm an old man.. i dont have to worry what if?"... shit! what a line no? i mean it sounds overused or a cliche but i heard it once again yesterday from the movie A LOT LIKE LOVE... shox!!! i really need that line now for a few realizations, but hell! i just cant follow and do it... ok, fyn...im too afraid to face my fears of confronting that one person coz i myt just be frustrated and placed down on my feet! i know if i really want sumthng i hav to look for a way and be brave to face it but maybe its too early still, maybe i need a little more time to gain all the strength i need and if that day comes, i'm sure i'd be able to accept whatever the effect of the move im gonna make... i know im just making myself suffer in a way that im keeping all the pains trying to show off that im alryt but i guess this is part of the process... well, i may not be content with my situation and it leads me to a lot of thinking and hurt but atleast, i still manage to smile and be happy in any small way... sa ibang department nga lang ng buhay ko..heheh! for that, id like to thank my frnds! love u guys!

bsta, as of the moment... id have to fix my life first and savor the moment im currently enjoying... kse as said in the same movie i watched yesterday... "don't talk, you'll ruin it..." *sigh* heheh! =)
sori guys ha, an drama ko... wag nyo na ako kontrahin... way of releasinglng kse tong pagsusulat! hahah! ;)

sounds MORBID, don't i?

2005-05-31T20:10:00.000-07:00

just notice lately na puro accidents resulting to death ang headline ng mga news khit chismisan lng... plane crushing, kids dying dhil nhulog lng sa butas ng hauz nila or kya dhil d dad went fishing lng... i mean simple things done pero great effects... tpos now, ang chismis dito, may na-rape nd killed... o db? cguro its true nga na accordaing to mga astrologers, etc.. this year daw is the year of karma so tlgang many tragedies will happen...

with these happening around, i remembered my mom's worries about me in her last visit d2 sa mla... we went shopping kse dat tym when i fainted and felt really cold... i asked my mom if we cud sit down for a moment tpos ayun na, ng-worry na ang nanay ko... bka dw may sakit ako, etc... ciempre ba nman, if ma-collapse ako hnd nya ako tlga kaya dhil sa laki ko no! well nwei, alam ko i felt that way kse wla me slip nung day na un tpos i'm about to have my period na kya low blood yta me nun...

pero now i realyzd, kya nman pla exag ang worry ng mom k kse i live alone and cguro she thought, wat if sumthng bad happens to me... e ako lng mg-isa... tpos lately, dhil sa mga nangyayari sa paligid, at lalo na kse i saw sa news na meron dw family na natagpuang patay sa hauz nila after days already na their dead na... so naisip ko dn na wat if bgla ako bangungutin in my slip tpos i die? howd sumbody know i'm dead wen ako lng mag-isa sa hauz n hnd nman cguro mgtataka ung guard or mga ppol around me if im gone kse lagi dw ako ganun, prang bula... bglang susulpot at bglang mawawala... my gosh! ayoko nman na pag natagpuan nila ung body ko e i stink na! kya i came up w/ an idea.. sbi ko na if i die, i'd just have to visit my favorite people n give them a clue that i'm gone or an idea that they have to visit me so dey'll find out as soon as possible that i died n pla... heheh! sorry nlng ha,, wla nman sa plan ko na manakot kso id prefer to do that nlng dan mabulok ako bgo nila ako mkita... ciempre, gusto ko pag nsa kabaong n ako, mganda pa rin ako db? heheh! morbid ba? or masydo lng yta ako ng-iisip? cguro ganon lng tlga wen ur alone... u hav d tym to thnk about just anythng!

so guys, im not nman writing this bcoz i knw im dying or i want to die... yoko pa yta no!! (LORD, wag m muna ako kunin ha... hnd p po ako ngbabago!heheh!) i'm just writing this as a precaution just IN CASE (wag nman sana).. kya if u dnt see me or hear from me w/n a week's tym lalo na sa mga closest frnds ko jan or sa mga tao na i find tym pra mgparamdam thru txt or miscol (in short, nagpapapansin ako... ehem.. heheh), parang awa nyo na... bisitahin nyo ko sa hauz ko or col me... if no response ako den beliv me, sumthng bad had happend so u hav to find me... ok? heheh! =p

my blog's new look

2005-05-30T19:42:00.000-07:00

yehey! finally... nabago ko na dn ang blog ko... ang saya2! mahirap dn pala buti nlng anjan c drake... thanx BOY!! hahah! tho, mejo may kulang pa... nwawala p kse ung comments and title ng mga posts but i'd have to ask pa kenny bout that kso he's not yet here... it's his day off... he's the GOD of html kse dito sa DR! heheh! kaya for those who wanna make comments... tagboard nlng muna ha! heheh! =)

that's drake and me: (cge na nga, khit mas malaki ang share ng face ni drake sa pic compared to me ay ipo-post ko pa dn tong pic as a form of gratitude sa pagtulong sa pag-aayos ng bago kong blog! hahah! )

looking for masseur! hahah!

2005-05-28T21:37:00.000-07:00

grbe! my back is aching... sobrang i feel like i'm old na... and i feel like i'm gonna be sick! shox!!! i need masseur, home service ha... pero promise... no extra service... hahah! sana mgparamdam ung mga friends ko na magaling mag massage at maawa sa akin!!! hehe! miche? ngpaparinig ako... nalipat k n kse e...heheh! namiss ko tuloy sum1 dhil i really need a massage badly... e he's really good pa naman... heheh!

40 hrs. away from home

2005-05-28T17:17:00.000-07:00

grbe! hndi lang ako nauwi sa hauz ng 40 hrs ay pgbalik ko, cra na ang double lock ko! continuation ito ng series of my unfortunate events...

so here's the story... after my shift last thurs, i went directly to beda to meet a friend. thereafter, went to hear mass at st. jude then visited a friend and old neighbor who i havent seen for almost a month... so chika galore kme... late that night, i went to my best frnd's place and waited for her to arrive ng 1 am kse she has to tell me many things dw... so to say, i slept in her place and spend the next whole day with her and other friends...

i went home mga past 8 pm.. npaka-saya kse ung taxi dumaan sa sobrang traffic na place since 2 streets yta ang gnagawa... when i got home, i couldn't open my door! open na ung knob but ung double lock's broken... i could see thru the really small space between the door and the wall that ung sinusundot(wat a term?!!) sa lock ay hndi gumagalaw... after many attempts, tinawag ko na ung guard to help me... at npaka-galing! wlang alam ang guard at ang gutso nyang gawin ko ay sa window nlng dumaan!! i got really mad kse pano ba nman e lock dn ung window tpos wat does he want me to do? basagin yun?!! o db? so he called the care taker of the hauz to ask pero wla dw sumasagot... i thot of sumthng... sbi ko kung pwde nya daanin sa small window of the cr to open pero hndi dw cia kasya and mahuhulog dw cia kse mejo malalim dw ung mhuhulugan nya... so i told him to get nlng tools tpos crain nmin ung lock... aba! npaka-galing kse ayaw pumayag dhil wala dw go cgnal kse nga d nya nakausap ung care taker!! e d ciempre, umaapoy na ako sa galit... sbi ko: "pano un kung bukas pa sumagot ng telepono c kuya edi? e di bukas pa ako papasok? anong gusto mong gawin ko!!" at hndi ako natigil sa pagsermon sa guard until na-convince ko sya by saying na if magalit cla at ung ofis sa knya, sabihin nya ako ang kausapin!! hello nman kse! ofcors, being a tenant...i have d ryt over the premises i'm renting... bsyds, im not gonna destroy any of their things nman kse ako nagpakabit nung double lock e!

so un, finally, cnira n nga lang nmin ung lock pero it took him a while pa kse hndi cia marunong!! grbe tlga! so nakapasok ako ng hauz after an hour pa... e bdtrip tlga dun kse i went home nga dhil i'm tired na so i want to rest n ol tpos ganun lng maabutan ko! shyet tlga! in short, ntulog ako na nkatape lng ung butas sa door... pero ayos na cia ngayon... pinapalitan ko na! =)

my life's DRAMA

2005-05-24T20:37:00.000-07:00

(mga never before shared sentiments po ito... guess it's time to let it out to relieve a part of the burden! heheh!)

as i was reading my last post about malas... i realized,, oo nga no? badluck comes in 3s... kse kta mo un... walng taxi,d k mhanap ang headset ko tpos late pa ko! pero those were simple kamalasan lang nman... but in truth and in fact, sa mga big problems...they still comes in 3s...

i was looking back at my past and guess what i remembered the most? ung mga lowest points ko... kung bakit? i dont know y! so eto ang kwento,which, will prove na malas comes in 3s nga... here comes my series of unfortunate events... heheh!

proof 1:
in Dec. of 2003, my father passed away just a day before new year! grbe! it was the moment i dreaded the most pero wat can i do? it was his time to go na i guess and it was better that way than to see him suffer... i was closest to my dad kya it was really difficult to move on kso i had to kse everybody was so down and losing hope that i thought somebody should be strong for us, so i did choose to be that one strong person... but deep inside me, i was slowly dying as well pero i showed everybody that i was ok...
e di un, since xmas break un, i have to go back to manila na for school becoz i'm graduating that school year... while i was battling with the sadness and all the changes in family matters, and material and financial as well, i had to get back up to work with my thesis... kung hindi, hndi rin ako gagrad n i'm afraid na bka lalong ma-depres ang aking mom... to think na january na nun tpos by feb, finals ko na... pero damn! we're (my thesis group) good! imagine? a thesis made in a month? at minor revisions lang yun ha! yabang ba? heheh!
tpos... in the middle of my battle, tama bang hiwalayan ako ng boyfrnd ko? shyet man!!! instead na tulungan ako, dumagdag pa sa pains ko! and that was feb 1... so, i remember? heheh! pero ok lang yun, we're friends pa dn nman till now..

yun... ang sad no? pero after some time, i finally said to myself,i was alryt na.. life seems to be lighter already and happier as well... there's sunshine nga nman tlga evry after a storm! (yuck! cliche ito!heheh!)

and so... naulit n nman ang kamalasan ko in 3s dis tym...

proof 2:
just this summer, my older sis and i had a world war... kung bkt world war? kse it led to our living separately... and we still havent seen nor talked to each other yet till now.. pero tolerable kse it's better this way naman for the both of us and i'm ok with the situation kso nkakalungkot lang dhil i feel masyadong affected ang mom ko...
so to speak, i have to worry for all my necessities although my mom is willing to provide me everything i need.. pro db? nkakahiya naman kse i'm old enough and i know i can very well support myself already... so i have to look for work, buti nlng i got one in 3 days n so gud na i'm here in PS wherein i found new frnds... but still, i have to adjust kse nga i have to wake up early and sacrifice a bit of my wonderful social life! (ahem,,heheh!)
and guess what happened while i was in my adjustment period to all these new stuffs... for the 2nd time in my life, my boyfriend gave up on me! gosh! kung kelan i needed somebody really bad to support me... pero in fairness to him, mali ko nga nman tlga, =p npaka-malas ko yata... though, i'd say it's alryt kse atleast we're good friends still...

u see? badluck comes in 3s nga nman... and another cliche, when it rains, it pours... kita nyo? d ko mainitndhan kung bkit if i'm battling on to something, they leave me... hai... tama nga ung nabasa ko na some bad things happen to you at times when you're down already... but this is life! you have to deal with it in the positive light and always learn from them...

gosh! ang drama ko! ako ba ito? hello! hehehe! na-impluwensyahan yta ako ni jayna sa bagong post nya eh... heheh!

now, i'm still striving to mend my life again but i know i'll get thru this... with flying colors? heheh! ay nku, tama na at nobela na ito! heheh! *sigh*

ang MALAS nga naman...

2005-05-24T16:23:00.000-07:00

grbe! kelangan ba tlga na ang malas ay sabay2? damn!!! umagang-umaga ay minalas n ako! pagkababa ko pa lang ng hauz, nagsimula na! quarter to 5 na kya i hav to go to work na... when i went down, aba! wlang taxi... so eto, nglakad ako papuntang kanto (w/c is malapit lng nman tlga... ) pra dun kumuha ng cab pro matagal pa dn... meron ngang isa kso d dw cia ppuntang mkti kya ever hintay nman ulit ako... and finally, dumating na c manong na nsense yta na late na ako kya ayun, pinalipad ang kanyang minamanehong sasakyan pero nman... akalain mo bang inabutan kme ng lahat ng red light! o db? kainis!

nwei, dumating na ako ng ofis at hello? 500 yrs ang elevator tpos pagdating ko pa ng 31st pra kunin ang aking headset... hala! hindi ko ito mhanap, e shyet! cgurado ako na dun ko nilagay sa plastic sa taas ng box un kahapon pra madali kong mkuha... finally, after sum tym, i got it! so baba na ako sa 30th dhil dun ako mag-lologin kso i hav to wait n nman for that "turtle" elevator... so to speak, late nga ako! i loggd in ng 4:07 sa callmaster ko w/c means i'm 7 mins late!!! hmp!

ayan, drake!!! napasa pa tuloy ang kamalasan mo yestrday sakn!!! c kirara nga namn....

what triggered me to create this blog?

2005-05-23T15:13:00.000-07:00

ano nga b? well, it's bcoz of d DR people around me hu wer all so bc updating and editing their blogs and most specially, ung LAUGHING GALORE nila sa mga blogs ng ibang tao lalo na ung blog ni chona na pati ako ay tuwang-tuwa! "WAG PO KUYA!" hahah!

n by the way, thanx to jayna... 4 patiently answering our (the newbies) queries about html, cherva2 re: blog! heheh!

e di un n nga, naiingit na ako sa mga bloggers kong kasama kso i still cant thnk of any title sa blog ko that's y ayoko pa mgstart n w/ jayna's advice na wag dw muna gumawa unless u have sumthng n mind alredi kse like her, papalit-palit dw... kya ciempre, nkinig ako!

i dnt know y or how pro sumthng flickered my mind all of a sudden, at naicp ko.. CALL GIRL!! ciempre kse nga ckat na ckat c call waiting ngayon kya y not call girl?

at eto ang kwento ng call waiting:

training pa lng kme batch 12 wen we strted using the term call watevr... c jr kse wore a shrt na may nkasulat na call boi, and it's really cute tpos from then on, nag-gaguhan n kme bout our occupations in life which is either a call girl or a call boi... then mark realyzd na meron nga nmang ibang three-way ang calling sa amin... three-way in a sense na they don't belong to either of the 2 groups i mentioned earlier: boy or girl... which also led me to come up with the word call-waiting! pano ba nman kse... ung so-called "bst frnd ko" according to a few hu knows the story, feeling! feeling macho n all wen it's quite obvious nman na he's hiding sumthng no? bsyds, i askd na a few three-way ppol and helo? db it takes one to know one? and alam nila na tlgang iba cia!! kaya ayun, the term call-waiting came to life! dhil filing ko uncertain cia sa calling nya... still waiting on his real calling..

e di ntpos na ang kwento,,, kso e2ng mga frnds natng mkukulit, biglang all eyes on sumbody else! gwapo kse... crush kse nila... ayoko sana maging mean kse personally, i like his persona nman pero minsan, kaduda-duda rn tlga e2ng c frnd kya nabuhay ulit ang term na call waiting! dhil evrybody has their own assumptions n theories on "frnd" but wat is common among those haka-haka is that... " he doesn't know wat his real calling is..." confused pa cguro... sayang nman ikw man! pero i'm sure, malaki pa ang chances of ur prefering to be strait! if and only if... ( sa mga kilala cia, alam nyo na ang ending! heheh!)

at eto ang cast ng aking kwento:

buhay DR

2005-05-22T20:53:00.000-07:00

an saya talaga ng buhay sa DR... wlang masyadong calls tpos msaya pa mga kasama and ang daming blind items at kung ano-anong mga chismis! wahehe! buti nalng may blog, atleast may ngagawa sa down time (ahem... bawal nga pla mg-open ng personal windows during work pero w8, tell me cno d2 ang hndi guilty of this at ookrayin nming lhat dito sa lane namin... heheh)

nwei, as mentioned, wla ngang mgawa and i'm seated here sa freezing point!!! and to think, the time is just nkaka-antok kaya e2, ngb-bc-bchan nlang sa pgawa nitong blog... and ofcors, pra hndi nman ako ma-out of place d2 sa mga ksama kong masyadong adik sa blog! hehe! un lng... =p